Baby Fever

What the heck did I get myself into?!

2010-07-08T15:16:00.000-07:00

After 3 days of vomiting every single thing I ate (which wasn't much), I'm finally back to normal. Well, third trimester pregnancy normal. I experienced really horrible contractions every time I threw up and I have to admit that I was thinking, "WHAT THE HECK DID I GET MYSELF INTO?!". I wasn't questioning our home birth or even a natural birth but just labor/delivery in general haha!

I called one of my amazing midwives on Sunday (bet you can't reach an OB on a Sunday morning) after experiencing several awful contractions and she listened to my symptoms, reassured me that everything was normal at that point, gave me suggestions on things that I might be able to keep down (BRAT - bananas, rice, applesauce, toast), directed me to stay as hydrated as possible and was just so incredibly nurturing. She also reassured me that my contractions from vomiting probably went from 0-10 on the pain scale but typical labor contractions will build and my body will produce endorphins to help combat the pain. Let's hope my body has some pretty strong endorphins ready to go for labor!

As painful as those contractions were (and I promise I'm not a wuss), I'm actually glad that I experienced them because it not only gave me confidence (I can do anything for a day, maybe 2) but it also gave me perspective on how I might handle the real deal. Mr. Baby Fever was also so completely supportive - rubbing my back, leaving me alone when I asked him to and just getting me whatever I needed (food, drink, etc).

I had an appointment with my midwives yesterday and everything is looking great. Our baby is head down (I think he's been that way for at least a few weeks now) and I'm as healthy as can be (weight, blood pressure, etc). They did the Group B Strep test, which I didn't even feel...let's hope it comes back negative! I look forward to these appointments and so does Mr. Baby Fever. We've gotten to know our midwives on a personal level and have developed trust in them. I must say that I'm excited for our home birth, knowing exactly who will be in the room with us and that they are all people that I WANT in the room with us, which should make for a less stressful labor.

35 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Week 34: Honeydew

2010-07-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

"Baby’s senses are continuing to improve -- when light peeks in through your (extremely) stretched belly, those tiny eyelids and irises blink and dilate. And, baby can now recognize and react to simple songs… time to start practicing your lullabies! Growth (at least inside your womb) is starting to slow, and you may notice baby descend into your pelvis at the end of this month."

How far along? 34wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Love, love, love my Liz Lang maternity tank top. Oh and I also live in my swim suit, who knew that I would actually enjoy putting on a swimsuit at 34 weeks pregnant!

Stretch marks? It's official, I have a stretch mark. It is not too terrible and I'm putting lotion/oil on it like crazy.

Sleep? I get up at least 4 times at night to pee, then it takes me another hour to get back to sleep, and then this little guy kicks me awake...good times! We're planning on transitioning our 2 furkitties out of our bedroom at nights starting tomorrow...makes me a little sad but I don't want them blaming the baby.

Best moment this week? We had a blast taking maternity pics on Saturday!

Movement? This baby enjoys kicking my ribs - they seriously feel bruised...or broken. I've been having to ice them and I find it funny when I can feel him scurrying away from the cold. Move down baby.

Food cravings? GIVE ME FRUIT - strawberries, cherries, watermelon, YUM! Still this. Oh and I despise all of those 99 cent frosty comercials.

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Braxton Hicks are continuing...

What I miss? SLEEP and not being kicked in the ribs.

What I'm looking forward to? Finally meeting this little guy who is breaking my ribs!

Weekly Wisdom: I highly recommend seeing a chiropractor who specializes in the webster technique...I <3>

Milestones: Braxton Hicks continue. Our nursery is finished. We took maternity pics.

Emotions: Looking forward to not being so bipolar!

34 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Born Safely. Born Simply. Born At Home.

2010-06-28T12:00:00.000-07:00

I just purchased this adorable shirt from Etsy seller Earth Bound Baby. I thought it would be perfect to put on my little guy right after the birth!

32 weeks & 2 days pregnant

Week 33: Honeydew

2010-06-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

"Baby’s senses are continuing to improve -- when light peeks in through your (extremely) stretched belly, those tiny eyelids and irises blink and dilate. And, baby can now recognize and react to simple songs… time to start practicing your lullabies! Growth (at least inside your womb) is starting to slow, and you may notice baby descend into your pelvis at the end of this month."

How far along? 33wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Living in my Liz Lang tank top - so comfy! I just bought a second one of these and I'm highly considering a third.

Stretch marks? It's official, I have a stretch mark. It is not too terrible and I'm putting lotion/oil on it like crazy.

Sleep? Oh how I miss my sleep! I seriously think that I will get better rest once this little guy is out of me!

Best moment this week? FINISHING OUR NURSERY!!! Besides a few DIY projects, it's is DONE!

Movement? This baby enjoys kicking my ribs - they seriously feel bruised. I've been having to ice them and I find it funny when I can feel him scurrying away from the cold. Move down baby.

Food cravings? GIVE ME FRUIT - strawberries, cherries, watermelon, YUM!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Braxton Hicks are continuing...

What I miss? SLEEP!

What I'm looking forward to? Finally meeting this little guy who is breaking my ribs!

Weekly Wisdom: I know that it is hot, I don't need to be reminded of this just because I'm pregnant.

Milestones: Braxton Hicks continue. Our nursery is finished!

Emotions: I've never been so emotional in my life!

33 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Home Birth Liar

2010-06-24T13:40:00.000-07:00

Mr. Baby Fever and I aren't telling very many people about our home birth for a lot of reason - mainly because most people aren't educated when it comes to home births and we don't want to spend a lot of effort educating at this point. I also don't want to feel like I have to defend my choice. There will be time for all of that after our baby is here. Right now all of my energy needs to selfishly be focused on myself and this baby - staying healthy, preparing for labor, etc.

A few days ago, I was shopping with a friend who recently had an induced and medicated hospital birth and she was asking me questions about the hospital that I would deliver at. I felt like a total liar for not being more upfront about my planned home birth but I just know that she wouldn't understand without me taking the effort to make her understand. Maybe I'm not giving her enough credit but when she found out I was planning for a natural birth she was very discouraging. I can only imagine what she would say about a home birth. I just feel like she doesn't have to explain her hospital birth choice to me so why should I have to explain my home birth choice to her!

Well, 44ish more days to go and I'll come clean ;-)

33 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Week 32: Still A Squash

2010-06-18T08:13:00.000-07:00

"Baby’s energy is surging, thanks to the formation of white fat deposits beneath the skin. (Have those kicks and jabs to the ribs tipped you off yet?) Baby is also settling into sleep and waking cycles, though -- as you’ve also probably noticed -- they don’t necessarily coincide with your own. Also this month, all five senses are finally functional, and the brain and nervous system are going through major developments."

How far along? 32wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Living in my Liz Lang tank top - so comfy!

Stretch marks? OMG, what is that?! It better not be the beginning of a stretch mark?! Baby, I thought we had an agreement that you wouldn't do this to me?!

Sleep? What's that? This little guy kicks me awake every 3 hours, unless if I'm already up from the pressure he's putting on my bladder. This 3rd trimester thing isn't fun.

Best moment this week? Finding out that a friend of Mr. Baby Fever had a home birth! It feels like we're part of some secret club. Oh and Mr. Baby Fever's co-workers just let us know that they are planning a shower for us!

Movement? He's on a 3 hour schedule right now (9pm, midnight, 3am, 6am) - wouldn't that be nice if he stayed that way once he's out! It sure beats waking up every hour!

Food cravings? Everything I can't have. My most recent and random craving was cheetos - I was begging Mr. Baby Fever to go get them for me but he was a good influence. I just need to keep thinking that there is no way I would feed my baby those foods once he's out so why do it to him now. I am however getting a frosty this weekend to help support the Dave Thomas Foundation for Adoption, that craving is totally justified and I haven't had much ice cream this pregnancy!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Braxton Hicks are starting...

What I miss? Mainly being able to sleep through the night.

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our never ending nursery!!!!!! Oh and we have a midwife appt on Monday, I always look forward to those.

Weekly Wisdom: We're all done with our Bradley classes and my weekly wisdom is to interview several instructors before signing up for a class in order to make sure that their personality/birthing philosophy aligns with your own! We picked the instructor closest to us (we didn't have very many options) but I would have been willing to drive for a better instructor.

Milestones: Braxton Hicks continue.

Emotions: I'm the type who NEVER cries and lately it seems like anything can make me cry. I don't even remember what Mr. Baby Fever said to me the other day (it wasn't bad at all I'm sure) but I started crying like it was the end of the world. He felt horrible and didn't even know what he said or did. Makes me laugh now lol, poor guy. I'm very lucky to have the husband I do because I certainly wouldn't want to put up with me right now and he has been beyond supportive!

32 weeks & 6 days pregnant

31 Weeks: Still A Squash

2010-06-11T11:52:00.000-07:00

"Baby’s energy is surging, thanks to the formation of white fat deposits beneath the skin. (Have those kicks and jabs to the ribs tipped you off yet?) Baby is also settling into sleep and waking cycles, though -- as you’ve also probably noticed -- they don’t necessarily coincide with your own. Also this month, all five senses are finally functional, and the brain and nervous system are going through major developments."

How far along? 31wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Full time maternity clothes but I can still fit into a few non-maternity (stretchy) things. When I'm at home I live in the most comfy tank top ever (it is Liz Lang from Target) and shorts.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying Earth Mama Angel Baby Lotion in the morning and Weleda Pregnancy Body Oil at night.

Sleep? I miss sleep. I seriously think that I'll actually get more sleep once the baby is here.

Best moment this week? Getting more things crossed off our to do list!!

Movement? I still can't get over watching my stomach move - so strange and awesome!

Food cravings? I want a big giant iced coffee!!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Braxton Hicks are starting...

What I miss? Sleep, cold sandwiches, caffeine, being able to bend over, not feeling tired...

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our never ending nursery!!!!!! (Still this)

Weekly Wisdom: A stranger recently asked me when I was due and when I replied early August she said, "Are you sure because you don't even look 5 months pregnant? You should ask your doctor." Are you kidding me? YES I'M SURE! My weekly wisdom: The ONLY acceptable thing to say to a pregnant woman is "you look great"!

Milestones: Experiencing Braxton Hicks.

Emotions: I cried while watching Dear John...I never cry during movies.

31 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Week 30: Squash

2010-06-04T07:52:00.000-07:00

"Baby’s energy is surging, thanks to the formation of white fat deposits beneath the skin. (Have those kicks and jabs to the ribs tipped you off yet?) Baby is also settling into sleep and waking cycles, though -- as you’ve also probably noticed -- they don’t necessarily coincide with your own. Also this month, all five senses are finally functional, and the brain and nervous system are going through major developments."

How far along? 30wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Full time maternity clothes but I can still fit into a few non-maternity (stretchy) things.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying Earth Mama Angel Baby Lotion in the morning and Weleda Pregnancy Body Oil at night.

Sleep? What's that? I'm up and awake every morning at 5am...please don't make this a habit baby.

Best moment this week? Hearing that all is well (my bp has been consistently perfect and my blood test came back normal) at my midwife appt on Thursday...bring on the home birth!

Movement? I could watch my stomach all day - it is so strange to think that my baby boy is inside of my right now!!

Food cravings? I could go for some ice cream but I'm being good.

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Sleeping on my right side (I can't lay on it for more than a minute now without it hurting).

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our never ending nursery!!!!!!

Weekly Wisdom: Swimming has to be the best invention ever for a pregnant lady!

Milestones: I'll be in the single digits tomorrow - 9 ish more weeks to go!

Emotions: I'm making a conscious effort to not get stressed out - it just isn't worth it.

30 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Blood Pressure

2010-05-30T07:41:00.000-07:00

My blood pressure was still slightly elevated yesterday morning when I had it checked at the fire department (they were super nice there btw), but I was also rushing around and sleep deprived. I should mention that my blood pressure level is definitely not something that an OB would be concerned with but my midwives are overly cautious, which is one of the main reasons why I picked them. They wouldn’t chance having a home birth at the cost of my health or my baby’s health. I spent most of yesterday just completely chilling out and resting (well, resting as best as I can rest - I always need to be doing something) and my friend's husband (who is a police officer/medic) took my blood pressure last night and it was back to normal. He left one of his electronic blood pressure cuffs with me (yay for not having to go to the fire department daily) and my blood pressure was still normal this morning! Looks like I’m getting the hang of this chilling out thing. I really think that my elevated blood pressure was due to stress – I need to be completely stress free for the next 10ish weeks. The pain in my side has decreased but I can still feel my muscles stretching in that area so maybe the baby is having a growth spurt? I get my blood results on Tuesday, let’s hope that everything comes back normal.

30 weeks & 1 day pregnant

Good News & Not So Good News

2010-05-29T06:33:00.001-07:00

Yesterday I had an appointment with my midwives and I have good news and some not so good news. Let's start with the good news, you know the glucose test that I had been stressing about for the past 7 months? Well, I passed with flying colors! My blood sugar level was at 90 and it needed to be under 130. I have been trying to stay active and eat well because I'm at risk for diabetes with my family history so it obviously paid off.

As for the not so good news, my blood pressure was slightly elevated and in the home birth world this is a red flag. At previous visits my blood pressure has been consistently perfect so this was not something I expected. I'm definitely the type of person who internalizes stress and boy have I been feeling the stress this week, this might be why my blood pressure is elevated. I typically handle stress much better (I'm a family counselor - I deal with stressful situations on a daily basis) but I think I just have too much on my plate right now and I need to learn how to just shrug off the things that I can't control instead of dwelling on them. Ready for more bad news? Lately I've been experiencing a dull aching pain in my right side. It could just be stretching or round ligament pain but my midwives wanted to play it safe and ordered blood work to test my kidney/liver levels.

I have a follow up appointment with them next Thursday and in the meantime I need to stop by our local fire department everyday to get my blood pressure taken (who knew that they offered that service) and I also need to stay away from processed foods (which I've been trying to do anyway). They encouraged me to swim for exercise now that the temps are rising and walking outside is no longer feasible. They also want me to take it easy and ordered Mr. Baby Fever to take over all of our household chores, which I will happily do. So basically I need to majorly de-stress, get more sleep, continue to eat well and get in some swimming. Wish me luck, I feel like crying at the thought of not having my home birth and I of course above all want my baby to be healthy.

30 weeks pregnant

Week 29: Squash

2010-05-28T07:07:00.000-07:00

"Baby’s energy is surging, thanks to the formation of white fat deposits beneath the skin. (Have those kicks and jabs to the ribs tipped you off yet?) Baby is also settling into sleep and waking cycles, though -- as you’ve also probably noticed -- they don’t necessarily coincide with your own. Also this month, all five senses are finally functional, and the brain and nervous system are going through major developments."

How far along? 29wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I tried on a few non-maternity outfits at Anthro last week...haha that was funny and a good way to make a pregnant lady very sad. I thought one shirt actually looked good on me but when I modeled it for DH he commented, "Are you sure that's maternity, it looks pretty tight". Gee thanks hunny!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying Earth Mama Angel Baby Lotion in the morning and Weleda Pregnancy Body Oil at night.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. This baby is on a schedule already - he wakes me up most nights at midnight, 3am and 6am. Have I mentioned that I miss sleep?

Best moment this week? Our baby shower was last Saturday and it was fabulous - my parents did such a great job with everything and we got lots of great stuff!

Movement? Some days he punches me so hard that I feel like he's going to break out of my stomach.

Food cravings? Give me meat!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? SLEEP!!

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our never ending nursery and passing my glucose test today!!

Weekly Wisdom: I'm not feeling very wise this week.

Milestones: OMG only 10 weeks left after tomorrow!!

Emotions: Boy has this week been STRESSFUL. I'm launching a new website/blog and there has been major drama with the designer so I'm now starting from scratch with a new designer.

29 weeks & 6 days pregnant

I've always wanted an indoor pool...

2010-05-20T14:55:00.000-07:00

I just ordered my birthing pool and I just had to laugh a little at the fact that this blow up pool will be in the middle of my living room. It seems absurd but when I compare this setting with a delivery room setting, the fishy pool wins! I’m not sure if I’ll actually be delivering in it but I definitely want to labor in it.

28 weeks & 5 days pregnant

27 Weeks: Still An Eggplant

2010-05-14T11:17:00.000-07:00

"Let your spouse put an ear to your belly -- he might be able to pick up baby's heartbeat (no stethoscope required). Inside the womb, the formation of tiny capillaries is giving baby a healthy pink glow. Baby's also soaking up your antibodies, getting the immune system ready for life outside the womb. Eyes are forming, and baby will soon perfect the blink -- perfect for batting those freshly grown lashes."

How far along? 27wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I'm in them pretty much full time now besides a few stretchy non-maternity shirts. A good friend recently had a baby boy and gave me all of her maternity clothes!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying Earth Mama Angel Baby Lotion in the morning and Weleda Pregnancy Body Oil at night.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. This baby is on a schedule already - he wakes me up most nights at midnight, 3am and 6am.

Best moment this week? Reaching the 3rd trimester and celebrating my 1st Mother's Day!

Movement? Baby is still moving like crazy, my absolute FAVORITE thing about pregnancy (even if he wakes me up every 3 hours)!!

Food cravings? Pretty much everything I eat gives me heartburn. This week I have been craving beef, which is beyond strange because I haven't had beef since I was a child!!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss my sleep!

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our nursery and PASSING my glucose test! Oh and tomorrow we're purchasing our birthing pool and the rest of our home birth supplies!

Weekly Wisdom: Grunting or sighing while bending down will gain you sympathy from your DH ;-)

Milestones: Hello 3rd trimester!!

Emotions: I'm seriously lacking in the patience department at the moment.

27 weeks & 6 days pregnant

My First Mother's Day

2010-05-12T11:14:00.000-07:00

Image from Dear Baby

I hope all of the mothers (mothers-to-be, mothers of angel babies, mothers of 4 legged friends) out there had a wonderful Mother's Day! I know there is some debate (in forums and other places) about whether or not pregnant women are in fact mothers but my definition of a mother is someone who thinks about her child before she thinks about herself. I'm grateful to have a mother who has done just that - sacrificed and thought of my needs first. For the past 27 weeks I have tried to follow my mother's example by thinking of my growing baby boy before I even get out of bed in the morning. I think about what food he needs to grow into a healthy baby before I eat and *try* to stay away from junk. I choke down a protein shake every morning just for him (trust me, there is no amount of money in the world that would make me do this just for myself). I get in my nightly walks with Mr. Designs by Vanessa even when I feel like a 90 year old lady who needs a hip replacement (another pregnancy perk). Before he was even conceived I thought of him on a daily basis and started taking prenatals, started working out and cut out caffeine to help get my body prepared for him. So yes, I very much consider myself a mother. Every time I feel him kick or I hear his heartbeat at my midwives office, I feel like a mother.

Mr. Designs by Vanessa gave me a very sweet 1st Mother's Day Card signed from our baby. I won't embarrass him by sharing what he wrote in the card but let's just say that it was tear inducing sweet. Ok, one tiny little excerpt: That tiny kick you feel today will be our baby boy saying, "Happy Mother's Day, Mommy!" and " I love you and can't wait to meet you face-to-face and cheek-to-cheek in a few short weeks from now". Isn't my hubby nauseatingly cute?! He also got me a very thoughtful keepsake box from Willow Tree featuring a mother and a son, I can't wait to put our baby's first curl in there! He definitely made my 1st Mother's Day special and I look forward to next year when our baby is out here to celebrate with us.

I hope someone made you feel special on Mother's Day!

27 weeks & 4 days pregnant

26 Weeks: Still An Eggplant

2010-05-07T16:30:00.000-07:00

"Let your spouse put an ear to your belly -- he might be able to pick up baby's heartbeat (no stethoscope required). Inside the womb, the formation of tiny capillaries is giving baby a healthy pink glow. Baby's also soaking up your antibodies, getting the immune system ready for life outside the womb. Eyes are forming, and baby will soon perfect the blink -- perfect for batting those freshly grown lashes."

How far along? 26wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I'm in them pretty much full time now besides a few stretchy non-maternity shirts. A good friend recently had a baby boy and gave me all of her maternity clothes!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. I miss sleep...

Best moment this week? We got our first baby shower gift in the mail yesterday!!

Movement? Baby is still moving like crazy, my absolute FAVORITE thing about pregnancy!!

Food cravings? Pretty much everything I eat gives me heartburn. I haven't had soda in almost 2 years but I'm craving a big giant Dr. Pepper at the moment.

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss my sleep!

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our nursery and PASSING my glucose test! And reaching the 3rd trimester tomorrow!!

Weekly Wisdom: If you are experiencing back pain, I highly recommend finding a good chiropractor who specializes in pregnancy adjustments...my chiro has been a life saver!

Milestones: OMG I'm in my 3rd trimester tomorrow!!!

Emotions: I've been pretty "normal" for the most part this week. Still pretty normal!

26 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Cesareans and Episiotomies and Epidurals, Oh My!

2010-05-05T08:35:00.000-07:00

This is what we learned about in our 5th Bradley Class this week. I hope I'll never have to experience any of these wonderful things but at least I'll be able to make an informed decision if they become necessary. Mr. Baby Fever skipped out on the last 30 minutes of class because he had to take care of a work situation so he missed the cesarean video but lucky for him, the instructor let us take it home so he can watch it later.

I have a "friend" who actually asked me if I was planning on scheduling a cesarean when I told her that I was pregnant. I completely understand that there are situations when a cesarean is necessary but to actually plan on one without there being a medical need is crazy and irresponsible in my opinion. I informed my friend that I was planning on a vaginal birth and she responded, "yeah I would never do that". Wow I really hope she does her research before she decides to have children!

From Mothering Magazine:
1. A woman is five to seven times more likely to die from a cesarean delivery than from a vaginal delivery.
2. A woman having a repeat C-section is twice as likely to die during delivery.
3. Twice as many women require rehospitalization after a C-section than after a vaginal birth.
4. Having a C-section means higher rates of infertility, ectopic pregnancy, and potentially severe placental problems in future pregnancies.
5. Babies born after an elective cesarean delivery (i.e., when labor has not yet begun) are four times more likely to develop persistent pulmonary hypertension, a potentially life-threatening condition.
6. Between one and two babies of every hundred delivered by C-section will be accidentally cut during the surgery.
7. The US is tied for second-to-last place with Hungary, Malta, Poland, and Slovakia for neonatal mortality in the industrialized world.4
8. Babies born via C-section are at high risk for not receiving the benefits of breastfeeding.
9. The risk of death to a newborn delivered by C-section to a low-risk woman is 1.77 deaths to 1,000 live births. The risk of death to a newborn delivered vaginally to a low-risk woman is only 0.62 per 1,000 live births.

The extremely high rate of C-sections in the U.S. (32.3%) is outrageous and unnecessary. When we were exploring our options and went to a few hospital tours, we were shocked to find out that these hospitals C-section rates were actually above the already high national average?! Maybe it's because they push pitocin on their patients (yes, a nurse actually told me that I would at the very least be given pitocin and therefore be confined to my bed during labor), which often leads to an epidural. An epidural will then slow down labor and the more likely it will end in a forceps, vacuum, or cesarean delivery. Why is this standard care in the U.S.?

On a more positive note, I had a check up with my midwives on Monday and everything is looking great! They received my chart from my previous OB and said that I have a "text book pregnancy" - sounds good to me! The baby's heart beat was the strongest we've ever heard it, such an amazing sound! I'm continuing to watch my diet and exercise on a daily basis so I'm right where I need to be as far as weight gain and belly growth goes. The dreaded gestational diabetes test has been scheduled for my next appointment at the end of the month. They offered me a choice between the nasty orange sugar drink or jelly beans for the test - I of course picked jelly beans! I might not mind this test so much after all. The "D-word" has been at the forefront of my mind this entire pregnancy, I don't want to put myself or my baby at risk for diabetes later in life and I definitely don't want anything to jeopardize my chance for a home birth. I'm ready to get this test over with!

26 Weeks & 4 Days Pregnant

Epidurals

2010-05-02T19:45:00.000-07:00

Let's start with the positive stuff first, my good friend just had her baby 3 days ago and I got to meet him today! I could have seriously held him all day, he's so tiny and precious! Holding him got me really excited for my own little guy's arrival. This is my friend's 2nd and last baby so she gave me all of her maternity clothes! I think she's just ready to be done with elastic waistbands. I'm super excited for new clothes...well, new for me!!

My friend's mom was telling my friend to advise me on how to have an easy birth - my friend apparently felt nothing and dialated super fast with petocin and an epidural. My friend told her mother that I was planning on a natural birth and of course I got the strange look and she said, "oh sweetie, you'll see how it is once you get to the hospital for delivery". She then proceeded to tell me about how her daughter in law hoped for a natural birth and asked for an epidural right when she arrived at the hospital. Gee thanks for the pep talk! I politely informed her that my mother had a natural birth after 2 days of labor and that if she can do it, so can I. Her response was, "oh really?", like she didn't believe me haha!

Why do people try and discourage me from attempting a natural birth?! This drives me crazy!! It's not like I'm sitting there talking crap about petocin and epidurals. I'm not sitting there preaching about the many risks of an epidural, so why do they feel the need to preach the "benefits"?! This is MY decision, NOT yours. Now I know why I'm not telling anyone outside of my immediate family that we're planning a home birth...

26 Weeks & 1 Day Pregnant

Slow Down

2010-05-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

This pregnancy is going by too fast. As much as I can't wait until the arrival of our baby boy, I also want to slow down time and really take in and remember this moment in my life. I kept a journal throughout my struggles with conceiving and when I look back at my thoughts and disappointments from just a year ago, it already feels like a lifetime away. I don't want to take that time for granted because I think it taught me a lot about myself and about the strength of my marriage. As much as I complain about nausea, heartburn, leg cramps, bloody noses (pregnancy sure is glamorous), I don't want to wish those things away because they are all signs that there is a healthy baby finally growing in my belly! I'm not sure why I'm feeling so sentimental today, maybe because our nursery furniture has arrived and things are finally starting to feel "real". We're having a baby and it is finally sinking in lol!!

Modern Baby Clock by Decoylab

26 Weeks Pregnant

Week 25: Eggplant

2010-04-30T14:07:00.000-07:00

"Let your spouse put an ear to your belly -- he might be able to pick up baby's heartbeat (no stethoscope required). Inside the womb, the formation of tiny capillaries is giving baby a healthy pink glow. Baby's also soaking up your antibodies, getting the immune system ready for life outside the womb. Eyes are forming, and baby will soon perfect the blink -- perfect for batting those freshly grown lashes."

How far along? 25wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I'm in them pretty much full time now besides a few stretchy non-maternity shirts.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. Oh and I got a taste of what sleep deprivation feels like after being kicked awake at 3am for the past few nights and not being able to fall back to sleep. Today baby let me sleep in until 5am, how thoughtful!

Best moment this week? Reaching double digits...only 99ish more days to go!! Oh and I'm sitting here waiting for our furniture to arrive, very exciting!

Movement? Baby is still moving like crazy, my absolute FAVORITE thing about pregnancy!!

Food cravings? Pretty much everything I eat gives me heartburn. Still craving a COLD sandwich!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not having heartburn after every meal.

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our nursery and PASSING my glucose test!

Weekly Wisdom: Every pregnancy is unique and every woman's body is unique, thanks.

Milestones: Double digits...only 99ish more days to go!!

Emotions: I've been pretty "normal" for the most part this week.

25 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Bradley Method Class - Week 4

2010-04-27T15:10:00.000-07:00

Tonight is our 4th Bradley Method class and while our instructor is still incredibly annoying, we're still getting a lot out of it. Week 2 we learned about how Mr. Baby Fever can better support me and his role during pregnancy, labor and delivery. We watched a fairly disturbing birth video and to my surprise Mr. Baby Fever didn't pass out, I was the one fidgeting and ready to pass out lol! I think our instructor was appalled when I told her that I didn’t want to see my baby coming out of my vagina during delivery through a mirror. I think that birth is incredible/amazing/beautiful but I personally don’t want to see it. I might change my mind while I’m in the moment but right now I’m quite ok with my belly blocking my view! Week 3 was by far the most informative class yet, we learned about the different stages and signs of labor. Mr. Baby Fever also learned how to count my contractions and we talked quite a bit about the affects of pitocin/epidurals. We end each class with a different relaxation technique that we could potentially use during labor…this is my favorite part of class! I’m actually looking forward to class tonight, despite our instructor going on and on and on and on about herself…

25 weeks & 3 days pregnant

Week 24: Still A Papaya

2010-04-23T10:35:00.000-07:00

"Watch what you say -- baby is now able to hear outside noise from down in the womb. Studies show that baby finds gentle music and your own voice most soothing. Nipples are starting to sprout, and that little face is fully formed. And, baby's starting to settle into sleep cycles, snoozing about 12 to 14 hours a day. It shouldn't be hard to figure out when -- just pay attention to those kicks as they start and stop."

How far along? 24wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I think my belly is finally starting to pop and I definitely feel bigger! My mom is almost as tall as I am and she didn't start fully showing until around 6 months, so I guess I should expect the same. I found a cute shower outfit at Destination Maternity (I hate this store btw) but I don't want to buy it in case if it doesn't fit me in a month.

Movement? He's an active little guy, especially right after lunch time! Feeling him squirm (even at 3am) is the absolute best thing about pregnancy, I'm going to miss this.

Food cravings? I'm craving a COLD sandwich!! That might just be the first thing I eat after giving birth!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not being so emotional!

What I'm looking forward to? Our furniture should be arriving in the next week or two!!

Weekly Wisdom: Unless a pregnant woman asks for your advice/opinion, the only thing you should say is "congratulations" or "you look great". Everything else is considered rude.

Milestones: Interviewed a pediatrician.

Emotions:I've been in a crying mood all week long, dang hormones!

24 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Happy V-Day!

2010-04-17T08:15:00.000-07:00

Don't worry, pregnancy brain hasn't completely taken over yet, I realize that today is not Valentine's Day. In pregnancy terms, V-day stands for "viability day", when the baby reaches 24 weeks gestation. At this point in pregnancy, the baby is now considered viable and the doctor's would take life saving measures because the chance of survival outside of the womb is higher. There would still be many complications if our baby was born at this point, so let's hope he stays in there for another 16 weeks! I'm still grateful to have reached such a huge milestone!

Time is really flying by now and it is starting to really sink in that in 16 weeks or so we will be the proud ~~owners~~ parents of a brand new baby boy! We've wanted this for so long and it still feels surreal that we are now living in the moment that we had hoped for. I don't want to wish away my pregnancy, I want to cherish each and every moment (heart burn, bloody noses and all). I don't want to take this for granted. When I stop and think that I'm creating a human being inside of, it just blows my mind!

Week 23: Papaya

2010-04-16T12:49:00.000-07:00

"Watch what you say -- baby is now able to hear outside noise from down in the womb. Studies show that baby finds gentle music and your own voice most soothing. Nipples are starting to sprout, and that little face is fully formed. And, baby's starting to settle into sleep cycles, snoozing about 12 to 14 hours a day. It shouldn't be hard to figure out when -- just pay attention to those kicks as they start and stop."

How far along? 23wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I received a few new maternity shirts in the mail this week from a recent online GAP sale. Everything fits and looks great! I still don't think that I look fully pregnant...maybe I can borrow one of those fake bumps for my shower in a month.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. Oh and I got a taste of what sleep deprivation feels like after being kicked awake at 3am for the past few nights and not being able to fall back to sleep.

Best moment this week? Mr. Baby Fever finally felt our baby kick last Friday night!! I also noticed my stomach moving from the outside this week, so strange and cool!

Movement? He's an active little guy!! Feeling him squirm (even at 3am) is the absolute best thing about pregnancy, I'm going to miss this.

Food cravings? Still craving fruit.

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not getting random bloody noses and heart burn...yup, still this!

What I'm looking forward to? Finishing up our nursery.

Weekly Wisdom: August is going to be hot, all of us summer mamas realize this and don't need to be reminded of it.

Milestones: Mr. Baby Fever felt his son!

Emotions: Just happy.

23 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Dear Baby,

2010-04-13T04:54:00.000-07:00

Let's not make waking your mama up at 3am a habit while you're still in the womb, ok? While I'm beyond thrilled to feel you squirming around on a regular basis now, do you think you could let your mom get some rest during the nighttime? There is no need to make my stomach growl like I haven't eaten in years, I really don't enjoy getting up at 4am to eat a snack, I promise I will feed us both at a more reasonable hour. I realize that I will be sleep deprived come August but until then, let's sleep through the night.

Love,
Your Sleepy Mom

Project Nursery: Rocker & Stuffed Friends

2010-04-12T07:23:00.000-07:00

We now have furniture in the nursery, well a piece of furniture! My parents generously bought this beautiful rocker for us and Mr. Baby Fever put it together over the weekend. I can't wait to read our little guy bedtime stories from this rocker, but for now his stuffed friends (from Etsy seller Cuore) will be hanging out there.

23 weeks & 2 days pregnant

Week 22: Papaya

2010-04-09T13:10:00.000-07:00

"Watch what you say -- baby is now able to hear outside noise from down in the womb. Studies show that baby finds gentle music and your own voice most soothing. Nipples are starting to sprout, and that little face is fully formed. And, baby's starting to settle into sleep cycles, snoozing about 12 to 14 hours a day. It shouldn't be hard to figure out when -- just pay attention to those kicks as they start and stop."

How far along? 22wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Just when I thought my bump was growing, at least 5 people this week told me "you don't look pregnant" after finding out how far along I was. Umm I promise I am! Baby bump where are you??

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. Still this.

Best moment this week My first appointment with my midwife group was on Wednesday and I got to hear our little guy's heart beat again (in the high 140's). I actually enjoyed this appointment, it was so completely different than a doctors visit. They took the time to answer my questions and get to know my pregnancy without rushing out of the room.

Movement? We took him to his 2nd hockey game on Wednesday (via the womb) and he was moving like crazy thoughout the entire game!

Food cravings? Still craving fruit.

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not getting random bloody noses and heart burn.

What I'm looking forward to? Getting our nursery furniture!

Weekly Wisdom: Please don't tell a pregnant hormonal women that she "doesn't look pregnant".

Milestones: We started our Bradley classes!

Emotions: Just happy.

22 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Bradley Method Class #1

2010-04-08T15:27:00.000-07:00

We attended our first Bradley Method class on Tuesday and I was a little disappointed to discover that we're the only couple in the 12 week class. Other couples can still join the class up until the third week but it's looking like this will be a private class. Enrollment is apparently down across Arizona, probably because of the economy and the fact that most insurances don't cover the expense of this class. There are benefits of a private class but at the same time I was looking forward to meeting other couples in the same boat as us. Because we're in a newer more rural area (well rural to me anyway), our class choice was very limited so I basically went with the instructor closest to us (20 minutes away)...not a good way to pick a Bradley instructor!

I honestly didn't get a very good first impression vibe off of the instructor. She's originally from NYC and a stereotypical New Yorker, which my husband hates me saying because he was born and raised in NYC but he actually agreed with me in this case. She's a bit abrasive, extremely opinionative and just doesn't shut up lol. When I originally contacted her back in December, I shared that I was deciding between a home birth or a hospital birth with a doula. I felt like she was trying to "help" me make my decision during class when we clearly told her that a decision for a home birth was already made. It wasn't that she wasn't supportive of a home birth, she just kept giving me referrals for hospitals, doulas and other midwives after I had already told her that I had made my decision regarding my midwife team. She recommended a book and when I told her that I had already read it she told me that I could find it at the library...umm thanks but I already read it and own it. She just isn't a very good listener and I found myself frustrated the majority of the time.

For the first hour I was thinking, "what the heck did I sign myself up for and how do I get out of it?!" but I relaxed a bit towards the end of class and was able to appreciate her candidness. This instructor is also a doula but she isn't very "doula-ish" in my opinion. The majority of doulas/midwives that I've met are very good at listening, advising and allowing you to have your own opinion/make your own decisions. I couldn't imagine her at my birth, I would probably end up yelling at her to shut up lol! I'm hoping that the classes will improve as we get to know her better and she gets to know us better. Like I said, by the end of the class she was much more tolerable and she does have a wealth of knowledge to offer. We'll see...

22 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Week 21: Banana

2010-04-02T19:43:00.000-07:00

"Baby gulps down several ounces of amniotic fluid every day, both for hydration and nutrition and to practice swallowing and digesting. And, these days, those taste buds actually work! Studies show that after birth, babies are most interested in tastes they've already experienced through amniotic fluid. Meaning, think about what you want your future child to eat as you prepare your own lunch."

How far along? 21wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? My belly is finally growing and I'm starting to feel more pregnant than bloated! I'm in maternity pants full time and wear a mixture of regular/maternity shirts. I'm thinking of ordering a few more maternity tops/dresses this week in preparation for summer in AZ.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. Still this.

Best moment this week? Our nursery is painted and we received our stroller...this is starting to feel more "real"!

Movement? Our little guy is an active one and I'm starting to notice his sleep patterns, very cool!!

Food cravings? I caved and bought a box of funfetti cupcake mix, I haven't had this since I was 5! I figure that I can cheat a little on my low-sugar diet for Easter weekend!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not having to go to the restroom 15 times/day!

What I'm looking forward to? Labor & Delivery! Oh and our Bradley classes start next week!

Weekly Wisdom: Check out my last post for my mom's weekly wisdom.

Milestones: We started our nursery!

Emotions: Excited.

21 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Mom Knows Best

2010-04-01T09:09:00.000-07:00

I recently shared the article Home Birth: "Brave" Has Nothing To Do With It with my mom and here was her response:

"She is brave - not because she is doing a home birth, but because she has the mental or moral strength to do what she knows is best for herself and her baby despite opposition.

My philosophy: It is important for every parent to educate themselves and make the best decisions for their children despite what anyone else says. You will always hear opinions and advice, but it is up to you as the parent to decide what is best for you and your family. Don't get upset or let it phase you when someone makes comments or asks questions that seem ignorant to you -- it is just that they don't know what you know. Just listen and respond patiently if you're in the mood to educate them, or pretend to listen and just nod, then do what you think is the right thing.

While I am on a roll dishing out advice: Know that there is no manual or baby book that can tell you what to expect when raising your children. Most of those authors don't have a clue and they definitely don't know your child better than you. Just when you think you have it all figured out, life will throw you a curve ball and you just may have to roll with the punches. The most important thing of all is that your baby knows you love him every day of his life -- even when he makes you feel like pulling out your hair (and he will).

So that is my advice for today -- listen to it if you choose, or
just nod and pretend to listen to it.

Love,
Mom

I'm definitely listening Mom, I needed that! I see this blog as more of a personal journal for me and I don't share it with friends/family members, so when I received that email yesterday from my mom after writing my last post I was amazed at how well my mom knows me and knows what I need - even at age 27! I spent a few hours yesterday talking to a few amazing women who have experienced home births and I feel completely empowered. I have officially decided, as long as my pregnancy continues to be normal and healthy, to proceed with a home birth.

For the people in my life who may not agree with my decision or start to tell me the "what if's", I will encourage them to do some research or ask questions. We've been researching this option for several years and it is definitely not something I would walk into blindly. I know the "what if's" of both home and hospital births, I just happen to feel more comfortable with the "what if's" of a home birth. I have full confidence in my midwife team and love that they are extremely conservative in their practice, meaning that they are very selective regarding who can proceed with a home birth and very cautious during home births.

Is it normal to look forward to labor & delivery?

21 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Home Birth Decision

2010-03-31T09:10:00.000-07:00

Round 2 of our anatomy ultrasound was on Monday and our little guy gave the tech the shots we needed of his side profile/heart. Everything is looking perfect and he is already over a pound big according to their measurements. His heart rate was perfect at 153ish and this time I could feel his kicks while watching them on the screen! This is what we had been waiting for in order to make a decision regarding a home birth. I felt like the anatomy ultrasound is a big milestone and if they found something wrong I didn't want to switch to a home birth midwife just to have to switch back to a doctor later. I realize that the switch can still happen but I feel good about my health and my baby's health right now.

So, what in the heck is holding me back from making this decision? I'm definitely not questioning my body's ability to give birth naturally or my confidence in the home birth midwife team. Mr. Baby Fever and I have been researching home births for years now and we're confident that a low-risk woman can have a safe (if not safer) birth at home. This may sound silly but I think I'm just afraid of being judged. I don't want people to think that I'm a bad mother for making this decision when I know in my head that this isn't the case. When I mention that I'm hoping for a natural birth many friends have told me that "natural birth is crazy" or "that's brave" or "just wait until you are in the delivery room, you'll change your mind". Wow thanks for the confidence ladies! What will they tell me when I mention my hope for a home birth? No, their opinion shouldn't matter but who likes to be judged?!

I have to say that my parents have been incredibly supportive. At first my mom questioned me but after doing her own research she came to the same conclusions - that home births are just as safe as hospital births for low-risk women. Surprisingly, my dad has become an amazing advocate for home births. Now that he's retired, he's enjoying his work as a full time "treasure hunter". He buys used/old furniture, refurbishes and re-sells. While he was out "hunting", he came across a yard sale in support of midwives and was able to talk to them about the sky high c-section rates in the U.S. and how proud he is that his daughter is considering a home birth with a midwife. They were so happy to see a dad so well informed and in support of home births. It makes me tear up just thinking of how supportive he is and has always been. We haven't told him yet, but our son's middle name will be his name.

I feel like since becoming pregnant, everyone has an opinion on everything and if you don't follow their advice then you aren't doing it "right". Remind me not to be this type of mom once this baby is out! I feel like as a mom, as long as you aren't putting your child in danger, that you should have the right and freedom to make decisions for your child without negative criticism. I mean seriously, is my child really going to suffer if I don't buy the exact brand of stroller/toy/crib/blanket/name/etc. you recommend?! Most of the time the advice I receive contradicts the unwanted advice I've already been given. An experienced mother's advice can be invaluable but there are a few close mom friends that I would go to for that advice because I fully trust their judgment and we most likely share similar child-rearing values. So the bottom line is that I just need to get over my fear of being judged and do what I feel is best for me and my child.

21 weeks & 4 days pregnant

Project Nursery: Paint Colors

2010-03-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

Who knew that picking paint colors for a nursery could be so difficult! There are way too many options but yet finding the perfect matching shade seems impossible. It's also difficult to imagine what the room will look like based off a tiny little paint swatch. After many hours of browsing paint swatches, we've finally picked the perfect paint colors...well I hope so because the painting will commence on Wednesday! We will be using Serwin-William's Gray Matters as our primary color and Watery (a light bluish color) on an accent wall (all no-VOC). Wish us luck!

21 weeks & 3 days pregnant

Project Nursery: Rugs

2010-03-29T12:26:00.000-07:00

I'm in love, love, love with this hopscotch rug from CB2!! The only problem is that I'm leaning towards painting the walls a greyish color with a bluish grey accent wall. I figure that the grey walls will tone down this super colorful room, but will a grey rug be too much grey? I'm also not convinced that it will fit in with my woodland creature motif, but it is just so dang cute! I was also contemplating doing a green shag rug, which will definitely bring in more of a nature feel to the room. That might actually be better because our furbabies tend to claw up rugs that aren't shag, not that they'll be allowed in the nursery. Maybe I'll just have to wait and see what the room looks like after it's painted. Decisions, decisions...

Hopscotch Rug from CB2

Par Shag Rug from CB2

21 weeks & 2 days pregnant

Week 20: Cantaloupe

2010-03-26T21:26:00.000-07:00

"Baby's digestive system is busy creating meconium (a tarry black substance made of swallowed amniotic fluid, digestive secretion and dead cells), which will fill the first diaper after birth. And, speaking of the diaper situation... baby's genitals are now fully formed! "

How far along? 20wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I'm in maternity pants full time, mainly because they are comfy. I wear a mixture of regular shirts and maternity shirts.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. Still this.

Best moment this week? I can now feel definite movement on a daily basis! This little guy seems to be most active right after lunch, I have felt him doing flips at around noon every day this week!! It is by far the coolest thing I've ever felt.

Movement? Baby continues to be active and is most active right after lunch. I can feel him on a daily basis now!

Food cravings? I craved eggs and peaches for the majority of my 1st trimester and now I'm addicted to mangoes and kumquats! If fruit wasn't full of sugar, I could live off of it during this pregnancy!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Nothing this week. I'm actually really enjoying being pregnant and feeling him wiggle around in my belly.

What I'm looking forward to? Painting the nursery.

Weekly Wisdom: Take weekly bump pics! I regret not doing this but I wasn't really loving my bloat in the first tri.

Milestones: Our little guy is now half-baked!!!

Emotions: For some reason I've been really teary this week - both happy tears and sad tears.

20 weeks & 6 days pregnant

20 Week Doctor's Appointment

2010-03-24T15:43:00.000-07:00

I had a routine doctor's appointment today and everything is looking great. I'm down 2 lbs since my last appointment...don't ask me how I managed to do that?! I'm still eating and working out the same. I'm still right where I need to be weight wise so my doctor is happy and I'm happy. Our little guy was hiding from the doppler so my doctor did a quick u/s to check his hear rate (it was 158 and perfect) and he was wiggling around (sooo cute!). My plan is to wait until after our 2nd anatomy u/s (we didn't get all the shots we needed at the 1st) before we make any decisions regarding a home birth.

In other news, we're making progress on our nursery. We now have bedding for our little guy!! My awesome mom bought the fab Skip Hop Mod Dots collection for us and it was recently delivered. It is so much cuter in person, I just love the colors and the pattern!

Next Up: Paint Colors & Closet Organization

20 weeks & 4 days pregnant

My Latest Addiction: Gilt

2010-03-23T09:39:00.000-07:00

"Gilt Groupe is the premier members-only website for fashion and luxury brands at prices up to 70% off retail. We provide access, by invitation only, to coveted brands for women, men, children and luxury living. Each sale lasts 36 hours and we have new designer sales every day. Our buyers hand-select every piece of merchandise we sell. Shopping on Gilt Groupe is a rush. Get addicted."

Yeah, thanks a lot Gilt, I'm officially addicted when it comes to shopping for baby stuff! I literally plan my schedule around their sales and I'm refreshing like a mad woman minutes before the sale starts. Hmm just writing this, I sound like I need to join a shopaholics anonymous group lol. I've always had a love for fashion and just quality products in general but I also love a good deal.

How it works is that once you receive an invite link, you register (no charge) on their website and then you can see what sales are coming up. Right now Maclaren and Crate & Levi products, among other things, are on sale. Each sale only lasts for 36 hours so if you really want something from a specific company you need to act fast before they sell out.

Here is an invite link: http://www.gilt.com/invite/mylink24588

In honor of full disclosure, I get $25 for every first purchase made but once you sign up you can send out your own invitation link and get the same deal. Here is my recent loot from Gilt that I got awesome deals on:

Petunia Pickle Bottom Organic Sling

Maclaren Volo Buggy
Crate & Levi Frog Puppet

20 weeks & 3 days pregnant

19 Weeks: Mango

2010-03-19T14:32:00.000-07:00

"Vernix caseosa, a greasy white substance made of lanugo, oil and dead skin cells (yum) now coats baby's skin, shielding it from the amniotic fluid. (Picture yourself after a nine-month bath, and the need for protection makes sense.) You might actually get to see the vernix at birth, especially if baby is premature. "

How far along? 19wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Hello flats, goodbye heels :(

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. Still this.

Best moment this week? Feeling stronger flutters, it is by far the coolest feeling!

Movement? Baby has been really active this week. I can now feel him on a daily basis!

Food cravings? I craved eggs and peaches for the majority of my 1st trimester and now I'm addicted to mangoes and kumquats! Still this!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Heels!

What I'm looking forward to? DH being able to feel our little guy kick for the first time.

Weekly Wisdom: Go on date nights as much as possible! This advice was given to me by several moms and we're enjoying hanging out as a couple before it becomes a threesome.

Milestones: Stronger flutters!

Emotions: Still so happy that we can now put a name and a gender to this baby!

19 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Project Nursery: Idea Board

2010-03-18T11:50:00.000-07:00

Project Nursery is in full swing in our household and I'm loving every minute of planning for our little guy's arrival. I've felt more and more flutters this week so I'm thinking that he also likes his nursery plans. I look forward to showing him his room for the first time and watching him grow up in that room. Ok, I officially can't write a post about our son without getting misty eyed...dang pregnancy hormones! My idea is a modern nursery in primary colors (red, blue, green, yellow, brown) with woodland creature accents. It's a little different and unique, which I love!

Mod Woodland Creature Nursery

Skip Hop Mod Dots Bedding from Modern Nursery
Elements Crib from Ap Industries
Woodland Prints by Ink Tree Press
Modern Baby Clock Hedgehog from Magpie Lovely
Linen Green Drape from Pottery Barn
Streeter Swivel Chair from Crate and Barrel
Red Table Lamp from Target
Stewart The Owl Plush by Cuore
Kyle The Raccoon Plush by Cuore
Andrea Green Rug from Ikea
Blue Pillow from CB2
Yellow Pillow from Crate and Barrel

19 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Wishlist Wednesday: Owl Hat

2010-03-17T09:33:00.000-07:00

This owl hat is too cute for words!! I think our little guy NEEDS this hat, a total necessity right?! Add this to the top of my wishlist...

Brown Sleeping Owl Hat by Savvy Snaps Photograph

19 weeks & 4 days pregnant

101 in 1001: Progress

2010-03-15T10:30:00.000-07:00

My 101 in 1001 list can be found HERE.

2. Track weight loss progress with monthly pictures.

Well, I've been tracking weight gain with monthly bump pictures lol! I think this counts so I'm crossing it off my list.

13. Look into replacing blinds with shutters.

Done and done! Now we just need to decide how many windows we can do.

22. Try 8 new recipes. (1/8)

I made these yummy Sweet Potato Fries last week in honor of our baby being the size of a sweet potato!

24. Attend 4 musicals or plays. (2/4)

Wow, I really haven't updated this in awhile! We saw the Nutcracker Ballet back in November and Legally Blonde in December.

27. Send 10 cards to friends just because. (3/10)

I sent a good luck card to my cousin who just moved to another state for college, a happy engagement card to a friend, and a card to another friend for her new pregnancy.

28. Send 10 cards to family members just because. (2/10)

Sent a card to my grandma and mom just because.

30. Find a rug for our dining room.

Found a new shag rug from Ikea for our dining room.

33. Read 20 books. (4/20)

I've read Baby Bargains and Baby Catcher - loved them both!

37. Do something nice for DH/10 times. (1/10)

DH has been wanting Mr. Steamy and I surprised him with it.

39. Try 10 new restaurants. (3/10)

We've been to Red Devil (I had a salad and it was just ok, DH's pizza was yummy!) and YC's Mongolian Grill (sooooo good!).

41. Get at least 15 articles published in magazines – online or print. (3/15)

I've gotten a few more articles published on Craftzine.

44. Take bile salts with every meal for 1 month.

I did this pre-pregnancy but I'm not really sure if they helped my digestive issues. Now I obviously don't want to take any other meds other than prenatals.

45. Watch a movie starting with each letter of the alphabet. (6/26)

We've seen Avatar, It's Complicated & Up In The Air...all good movies!

49. Visit Sedona.

We spent our New Year's Eve in Sedona. I love this place!!

69. Find 10 things to love about living in Arizona. (2/10)

I LOVE that AZ doesn't ever change its time!!

70. Attend a Phoenix Coyote game.

Done and done! Sooo much fun!

77. Go hiking.

We went hiking while we were in Sedona.

84. Buy 5 things on Etsy. (2/5)

I bought this cute Woodland Print for my nursery.

Week 18: Sweet Potato

2010-03-12T09:57:00.000-08:00

"Your fetus has become amazingly mobile (at least compared to you), passing the hours yawning, hiccuping, rolling, twisting, kicking, punching, sucking and swallowing. And, baby's finally big enough that you'll be able to feel those movements soon. "

How far along? 18wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? My mom bought me a few cute maternity shirts this weekend. Yay for non-frumpy clothes!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night with the most horrible cramp in my leg...ouch!

Best moment this week? Finding out that our baby is a healthy baby boy!!

Movement? Stronger flutters this week!

Food cravings? I craved eggs and peaches for the majority of my 1st trimester and now I'm addicted to mangoes and kumquats!

Gender? It's a Boy!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? My back not hurting.

What I'm looking forward to? Decorating the nursery.

Weekly Wisdom: A lot of nursery furniture takes 10+ weeks to come in so make sure you ask the store ahead of time and you know when to order.

Milestones: Finding out our baby's sex!!

Emotions: SOOOO HAPPY!!

18 weeks & 6 days pregnant

It's a BOY!!

2010-03-12T07:00:00.000-08:00

We're having a BABY BOY!! I had a strong initial feeling that it was a boy but the girl dream really threw me off, now I understand why I was so indecisive about all things girl lol. It was the most incredible feeling when the tech announced that we're having boy, I was in complete awe and I fell more in love with this little guy (if that is even possible)! I can't put this feeling into words and I think if I tried I would end up a blubbering mess. It is just incredible to envision our lives with a son. Let's just say that I had a very difficult time falling asleep last night because I was so excited!

The ultrasound tech was amazing and answered all of my questions and really took the time to explain what she was looking for with every measurement, I wish every tech was like this! Everything is looking great but because our baby was being a bit stubborn and didn't want to give us a good profile shot, we might have to go back in a couple weeks. I could stare at that screen all day so I'm definitely not complaining!

18 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Mustard Yellow & Pink Nursery

2010-03-10T07:00:00.000-08:00

Thank you for helping me think pink yesterday, I think I finally have a girl nursery plan that I LOVE! If we have a girl, we'll be going with the mustard yellow and pink scheme (with birdie accents of course). I'm actually really, really, really excited about this plan and equally as excited about my boy nursery plan! I just can't wait to start decorating our nursery. It feels like it has taken an eternity to get to this point and now that we are finally here, it just feels surreal! Do I really get to start decorating our nursery after tomorrow?!

On a more serious note, please keep us in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow. The anatomy ultrasound is important for so many reasons (not just to find out the gender) and I'm anxious to hear that this baby is healthy.

My Mustard Yellow & Pink Nursery Idea Board:

Midwest Modern Fabric by Amy Butler
Pink & Mustard Crib Set by babydarling
Love Print by The Love Shop
White Bird on Yellow by Lucky Bluebird Art
Yellow Birds Grey Tiles by Lucky Bluebird Art
Bluebird on My Shoulder by Lucky Bluebird Art
Pink Crystal Lamp from Target
White Shag Rug from Ikea
Giraffe Stuffed Toy by babydarling
Owl Bookend by I Sew Lucky
Shaggy White Pillow from CB2
Wave Custard Pillow from CB2

18 weeks & 4 days pregnant

Still Thinking Pink

2010-03-09T09:37:00.000-08:00

Remember my Girl Nursery Post from yesterday? Well, I like that idea but I'm not sure if I LOVE it. I told you I was indecisive with all things girl related. Naturally, because of this, I will most likely be having a girl lol. Lately I've been thinking more and more about doing a mustard and pink color scheme. I have this unnatural obsession with mustard yellow but I'm afraid that it is only a temporary obsession and after a year I will hate it (although I can't see that happening right now). I want something that our little girl (if that is what we are having) will be able to grow into.

After several hundred (thousands?) of searches for the perfect girl crib bedding, I've returned empty handed. That is when I decided that I will have a fabulous Etsy seamstress custom make our bedding and the search for the perfect fabric commenced. Going with the two color schemes that I like, I'm trying to decide between this fabrics by the fab Amy Butler:

(Option 1) Pinks, blues and yellows (the blues don't match in the pic but I've *heard* that they match in person):

Bad example (picture the yellow where the icky tan is and the blue fabric as the skirt - or I might just do a solid blue) from Baby Bedding:

(Option 2) Mustard yellow and pink (why do I love this so much?!):

Gorgeous example by babydarling:

I need your feedback creative people. Any other fabric suggestions? Vote on which option is your favorite or if you have ideas, I would love to hear them!! If you haven't noticed, I am a crazy type-A planner lol!

18 weeks & 3 days pregnant

Our Girl Nursery

2010-03-08T13:49:00.000-08:00

I secretly love that Mr. Baby Fever responds "that's nice" to everything nursery related I show him, because that means I can do whatever I want in there within our budget. After Thursday, project nursery will be full speed ahead. That room has been empty far too long and I'm excited to get started!

So with that said, I can't exactly walk into that ultrasound room on Thursday without a girl theme when I have a boy theme all ready to go. We'll already be walking in there without a girl name and seeing as how I dreamt it was a girl, I need to put my pink thinking cap on.

I *think* I've finally decided on a nursery idea for a little girl. This is an extremely rough draft of my idea and I reserve the right to make a million modifications to it. Because I'm not really into themey nurseries (not that these aren't cute, they just aren't for me), my girl nursery will draw its inspiration from Amy Butler's Midwest Modern fabric. I picture lots of pinks, yellows and blues with birdie accents. I give you my (very very rough draft) girl nursery idea board...

Pinks, Yellows, Blues and Birds

1. Vintage Birdcage from Bhs
2. Love Birds Yellow by Lucky Bluebird Art
3. DIY Wall Art
4. Birdcage Mirror from Stylish Home Furniture
5. Amy Butler Custom Crib Bedding by Fingers & Toes
6. Midwest Modern Fabric by Amy Butler

18 weeks & 2 days pregnant

3 More Days

2010-03-08T06:08:00.000-08:00

...until we find out the sex! So, cast your vote in the poll to your right!!

So you can make an educated guess:
- I craved peaches and eggs in my first trimester.
- I'm now craving Mangoes and most recently Kumquats.
- The Chinese Lunar Calendar says boy.
- The online old wives tale quiz said 60% boy.
- I was nauseous the majority of my first trimester and just started feeling better at week 17.
- All family members are saying boy (except my mom).
- I had a feeling it was a boy in the beginning but after a pregnancy dream I'm now thinking girl.
- Mr. Baby Fever dreamt that we're having a girl.
- We really don't have a gender preference.

(On a more serious note, check out THIS article for more info on what to ask during your anatomy u/s)

18 weeks & 2 day pregnant

Retail Therapy: Old Navy Top

2010-03-07T16:04:00.000-08:00

I'm currently stuck in that in between stage where my regular clothes are obviously tighter and maternity clothes just make me look frumpy. When it got to the point where I was trying on almost everything I own just to go back to the first shirt I originally picked, I knew it was time to make a trip to Old Navy. I had high hopes of finding maternity shirts that (1) wouldn't make me look frumpy and (2) would work for a summer pregnancy because this baby has 5 more months of baking to do. The maternity section at the Old Navy I went to was extremely limited but I managed to find this cute shirt for only $10 bucks that met both of my requirements. It really doesn't look like a maternity shirt but it flowy enough to accommodate a growing belly and I can pair it with a cardigan now that it is chilly. I'm ashamed to admit that I've already worn this top twice in the short week that I've owned it. I should probably try to find a few more tops!

18 weeks & 1 day pregnant

17 Weeks: Onion

2010-03-05T10:22:00.000-08:00

"Baby's skeleton is hardening, changing from rubbery cartilage to bone, and fat is finally accumulating around it. The umbilical cord is getting thicker and stronger, and those little fingers and toes are now topped by one-of-a-kind prints. "

How far along? 17wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? Still in that frumpy in between stage where nothing really fits as it should. I can't wait to finally look pregnant instead of fat!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm only comfortable sleeping on my left side, which isn't very comfortable to do the entire night.

Best moment this week? Interviewing a home birth midwife team!

Movement? Still feeling flutters and really hoping that this is the baby!!

Food cravings? I craved eggs and peaches for the majority of my 1st trimester and now that I'm in my 2nd trimester, I'm obsessed with all fruit but addicted to mangoes!! Still this!

Gender? I have no clue, we find out in 6 loooong days!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Being able to wear heels 24/7!

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out the sex in 6 days!!

Weekly Wisdom: Definitely take a hospital tour and ask questions to figure out what you are comfortable with.

Milestones: More fluttering :)

Emotions: I'm beyond excited to find out the sex and anxious to see our little one again!

17 weeks & 6 days pregnant

What if I don't want an epidural?

2010-03-02T08:01:00.000-08:00

This is what I asked the nurse on the hospital tour after she told the group that once we received our epidural we would be hooked up to monitors and in the bed until delivery. From everything I've read and every birth story I've heard, laboring on your back is not exactly comfortable when you aren't numb from an epidural. The nurse and entire hospital tour group looked at me like I had 2 heads at the mention of doing this delivery thing sans epidural. The nurse quickly dismissed my question and said that 90% of patients at that hospital received an epidural and I would at the very least be given pitocin and wouldn't be able to walk around. My hopes for a natural childbirth quickly vanished the more time I stood in that hospital.

When I informed my doctor about my desire for a natural birth, she was very discouraging and almost dismissive. I could almost see her thinking, "Oh geeze, why can't all of my patients just be compliant." She informed me that whoever was on call when I went into labor would be my doctor, and stated that she liked to schedule (a.k.a. induce) births around her on call time for this reason. Ok, first of all if I don't need to be induced I don't want to be! Second, if I do need to be medically induced she will induce me around my baby's schedule not hers! Third, there are many other natural ways to induce labor without using pitocin. Pitocin severely increases pain and often results in an unnecessary/unwanted epidural. I'm not against this if it truly is medically necessary but if everything is normal, I think I should be allowed to labor at my own pace and to be able to walk/jump/squat/dance off the pain. After leaving her office, I understood why the hospital she delivers at has a 90% epidural rate and a sky high c-section rate. I should mention that I actually really like and respect this doctor, she has great bedside manner and is very knowledgeable in the world of infertility (the main reason I picked her). If one of my friends was planning on an epidural, I would highly recommend this doctor in a heartbeat. She is one of the top doctor's in my area but she is trained to be, well, a medical doctor - someone with the belief that pregnancy is a sickness and should be treated as such.

Call me crazy, but yes I hope to have a natural birth. I've always felt empowered by my mom's natural birth story when she delivered me and always hoped that I could also tell my children a similar story. The fact that she was in labor for 2 straight days scares the crap out of me but it also makes me realize that my body is designed for this and if she can do it, so can I...or I can at least attempt it. It's not like I'm going to show up completely unarmed for my labor/delivery, we've signed up for a Bradley Methods class and I'm continuing to workout throughout this pregnancy. I also recently started prenatal yoga to help me better prepare. I'm definitely not knocking women who decide that an epidural is the way to go, I just feel like women should have the right to make that choice and to not be shamed or discouraged for whatever that choice is. I totally reserve the right to change my mind as labor progresses but again, as long me and my baby are healthy, I feel like it is is my right to have full say over my body.

For these reasons, Mr. Baby Fever and I have started interviewing home birth midwives. Yes, I said HOME BIRTH! Don't worry, we've done our research and we aren't blindly walking into this. I feel like most people don't understand that midwives are licensed and trained professionals who can handle emergencies. We met with the most compassionate and knowledgeable midwife team yesterday and I have the utmost confidence in their abilities to handle an emergency situation. Their hospital transfer rate is at 5% and the most common reason is due to exhaustion for first time moms (a great reason for me to continue working out during my pregnancy). Their c-section rate is around 2% and their episiotomy rate is almost non-existent. They take their time during the delivery and make sure that the body stretches with the use of olive oil/warm towels so nothing rips or tears. They are extremely conservative, meaning that they very cautiously screen their patients to determine if you are a good candidate for a home birth (no gestational diabetes, no twins, no high blood pressure, etc.) and constantly monitor and assess for emergencies. They have attended over 1,000 births together and Mary, the older of the two, has attended over 2,000 births. They willingly gave me the phone numbers for several of their recent patients without me having to ask and I'll be calling these home birth veterans this week to learn more. I'm excited about this possibility and want to make sure that I'm 110% comfortable in my decision before I make it.

My friend, who has had 2 home births, warned me to be prepared for negative criticism and ignorance regarding home births. So, I'm prepared and realize that I'm opening myself up to this by blogging about it...

17 weeks & 3 days pregnant

16 Weeks: Avocado

2010-02-26T12:26:00.000-08:00

"Watch what you say... tiny bones forming in baby's ears mean the little one can now pick up your voice. Eyebrows, lashes and hair are starting to fill in, and taste buds are forming. And, if you're interested, an ultrasound might be able to determine gender."

How far along? 16wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I'm still in that awful in between stage but I managed to find a cute maternity shirt today at Target that doesn't make me look frumpy. I'm definitely starting to pop!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? No more puking in the middle of the night (YAY!) but I can't seem to get comfy enough to sleep through the night. Sleeping on my back and my right side now officially hurts.

Best moment this week? We had a doctor's appointment on Tuesday and heard the best sound ever - the swoosh, swoosh, swoosh of our little one's heartbeat. The baby's heartbeat was in the 150's and absolutely perfect. I fall more and more in love with this baby everyday!

Movement? I have been feeling flutters all week long!! This can't be gas, right?! I can't wait to feel a full on kick!

Food cravings? I craved eggs and peaches for the majority of my 1st trimester and now that I'm in my 2nd trimester, I'm obsessed with all fruit but addicted to mangoes!!

Gender? I was thinking boy in the beginning but now I'm thinking girl after a recent u/s dream. I truly don't care, I just hope for a healthy baby. We find out on March 11th!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Hot Chocolate. I've cut way back on caffeine, including chocolate, and have only had hot chocolate once while pregnant.

What I'm looking forward to? Another hospital tour this weekend and meeting with a potential midwife on Monday.

Weekly Wisdom: Prenatal massages are heavenly, definitely get one if you can!

Milestones: We heard the heartbeat for the first time at the doctor's office!

Emotions: I have no idea what was wrong with me on Thursday but I couldn't stop crying! Don't worry, I'm back to normal now!

16 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Thinking Pink

2010-02-25T15:44:00.000-08:00

I've been so indecisive about everything girl - we don't have a name set in stone yet and I have no idea what I'll be doing in the nursery. It's not that I want a boy over a girl, we would be happy with either sex but for some reason I'm having a difficult time deciding on anything girl related. Mr. Baby Fever and I both had dreams that we're having a girl so I better start thinking pink.

For the nursery, I do know that I want some pink and maybe some aqua/blue accents. I also want to add birdie accents but I don't want it to be bird themed. I've been searching and searching for girlie bedding but I haven't found the perfect crib bedding yet. I was just browsing Serena & Lily (I'm in love with this shop!) and came across the most gorgeous bedding, but still haven't found "the one"...

Natasha by Serena & Lily

Ruby by Serena & Lily

Kate by Serena & Lily

16 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Wishlist Wednesday: UPPAbaby Vista

2010-02-24T10:56:00.000-08:00

Mr. Baby Fever and I spent Saturday stroller comparison browsing. The workers at Buy Buy Baby were so incredibly helpful in showing us what each stroller has to offer, what the main differences are and how to fold/unfold each stroller. They even got us water jugs to place in the strollers for more realistic test drives. I highly recommend spending some time test driving several strollers side by side before you purchase. I went into the store 90% sure that I was getting a particular stroller and ended up absolutely hating it in the store.

We browsed a few strollers recommended for tall parents (I'm 5'10'' and Mr. Baby Fever is 6'4'') and fell in love with the UPPAbaby Vista! Yes, it is a tad pricey but I really feel like it will meet all of our needs and besides a cheap umbrella stroller for traveling, we won't have to purchase another stroller. I love the bassinet that comes with it and the reversible seat so baby can face us when younger. The car seat adapter will snap in a Chicco Key Fit 30 (the car seat we're getting), most of the other strollers that we like offer straps to secure in a car seat but this just doesn't seem as safe to me as a snapping system. We of course love the telescopic handle and the no kick rear axle, perfect for tall parents! I also love that it can easily adapt to a double stroller, we won't have to buy another stroller for #2!

I think we have a winner!

16 weeks & 4 days pregnant

Week 15: Orange

2010-02-19T06:28:00.001-08:00

"Continuing the march towards normal proportions, baby's legs now outmeasure the arms. And, finally, all four limbs have functional joints. Your fetus is squirming and wiggling like crazy down in the womb, though you probably still can't feel the movements."

How far along? 15wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? My current clothes are starting to fit a little too snug but I don't yet fill out maternity clothes...I'm not liking this in between stage!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I recently started waking up to puke in the middle of the night, thank you baby!

Best moment this week? Mr. Baby Fever and I are starting to talk to the baby more and more :)

Movement? I'm feeling *something* but I'm not sure if that something is the baby yet.

Food cravings? Eggs, Peaches and Mangos...yum!

Gender? I had a dream that this baby is a girl, we'll see if that's true on March 11th! Mr. Baby Fever is now thinking boy.

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Clothing that fits.

What I'm looking forward to? Our hospital tour and meeting with a potential doula on Sunday!

Weekly Wisdom: Stay away from all of those baby shows, they only make you more anxious!

Milestones: I'm feeling more and more fluttering, not sure if that's the baby or not.

Emotions: Considering how crappy this week was, I've actually been pretty normal!

15 weeks & 6 days pregnant

A Quarantined Hubby

2010-02-18T19:07:00.000-08:00

Mr. Baby Fever has been quarantined to the guest room because he caught my cold, which unfortunately turned into bronchitis, and he doesn't want to re-infect me. I was dead to the world for 2 weeks because of that stupid cold but thank goodness Mr. Baby Fever is starting to finally feel better. I miss my husband!! He still managed to give me a gorgeous Willow Tree figurine for Valentine's Day. It is fittingly called "Cherish" and it features a woman holding her pregnant belly. I told Mr. Baby Fever about this figurine in passing once or twice but never thought he would actually remember, sometimes that man surprises me! It is such a meaningful gift and something that will always remind me of this amazing time in my life. We're planning on celebrating a make-up Valentine's Day this weekend if he feels well...fondue here I come!

15 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Wishlist Wednesday: PPB Boxy Backpack

2010-02-17T11:04:00.000-08:00

I've been stalking Baby Steals for months now in hopes that my beloved Petunia Pickle Bottom Boxy Backpack will go on sale. Now that the new spring line is out, I'm hoping that the fall line will go on sale soon!

15 weeks & 4 days pregnant

A Sad Day

2010-02-15T10:39:00.000-08:00

Almost 20 years ago, this scrawny little thing appeared at our backdoor looking for a family. Her bones were poking out beneath her matted fur and she was freezing cold. I was 8 years old and had been begging my parents for a pet so when this tiny creature appeared on our doorstep I surely thought that my prayers had been answered. My mom instructed me not to feed it or it would stick around, so of course I quietly put my own blanket outside along with some lunch meat for this shivering critter. Night after night she continued to return to our backdoor and she eventually warmed her way into all of our hearts and our home.

Kitty-Kitty was so much more than just a pet, she became an important part of our family who was there for us in ways that are indescribable. When I left for college, she stayed behind to keep my parents company (a.k.a. boss them around). Kitty was diagnosed with kidney failure awhile back and my parents had been giving her an IV each morning to keep her hydrated. It was difficult seeing our family member get older and go through these changes but she still had her same sassy personality. More recently, she started having difficulty walking and began shivering uncontrollably. My parents had a difficult decision to make. Yesterday morning my mom fed Kitty-Kitty ice cream, a treat that she always went crazy over but we never allowed her to have, and my parents held her as she left us.

Words cannot express how much joy she brought into our lives and how much we'll miss her. We're very lucky and grateful that she picked us to become her family. Hug your pets a little tighter tonight because their time on earth goes by way too fast.

15 weeks & 2 days pregnant

Week 14: Lemon

2010-02-12T17:13:00.000-08:00

"Your adorable little fetus is busy with thumb sucking, toe wiggling, and (not so cute but equally amazing) making urine and breathing amniotic fluid as the liver, kidneys and spleen continue to develop. Lanugo (thin, downy hair) is growing all over the body for warmth. "

How far along? 14wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? No new maternity purchases. All of my regular shirts still work and I'm loving my maternity jeans.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I've been waking up at all hours of the night and its hard to get back to sleep. I miss my sleep!!

Best moment this week? Finally getting over this horrible sinus infection! I'm still not 100% but I can now breath at least!

Movement? Still waiting for official movement!

Food cravings? Mangos!! I went grocery shopping and ended up picking up fresh mangos, peeled mangos and frozen mangos lol!

Gender? Who knows, we will find out on March 11th and I can't wait!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Cold meds that work.

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out the sex and decorating the nursery!

Weekly Wisdom: Pick up a copy of Baby Bargains before registering...I love this book!

Milestones: No real milestones this week.

Emotions: I've been too sick to be hormonal!

14 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Our Boy Nursery

2010-02-11T17:48:00.000-08:00

When we first started looking at new homes a few years ago, we would walk through the model homes and we would picture our life in that home. We envisioned our future with children and picked our home with that thought in the back of our minds. Our conversations often turned to, "this room would be our nursery" or "this neighborhood would be great for children".

When we moved into our current home, we designated a room as the nursery and literally shut the door and never walked in there until just recently. For awhile there I considered turning the room into something else because even walking by the shut door would make me feel sad and disappointed, but I knew that I would always think of it as the "nursery" and changing that would be too painful for me. I finally opened the door just a couple weeks ago and just sat on the bare floor, thinking about how all of our hopes and dreams are finally coming true. I imagined what it would be like to bring our baby home to this room and how I would soon be spending tons of time in this room that I couldn't even walk in a few months ago.

We find out the sex on March 11th (a month from today!) and I'm looking forward to decorating our nursery after that point. I want our child to look back at all of our planning and hoping, and to think about how much he/she is loved. It might be a little early to start nursery plans but for me it has been a long time coming, so I give you our boy nursery inspiration (maybe, I have way to many ideas)...

Mod Woodland Creatures Nursery

1. How Wonderful Life Is by SuZanna Anna
2. Paper Lanterns from Luna Bazaar
3. Skip Hop Mod Dots from Modern Nursery
4. Sock Owl Tutorial from Whimsy Loft
5. Woodland Set by OrangeInk

(Girl nursery inspiration coming soon!!)

14 weeks & 5 days pregnant

If you look really, really close...

2010-02-08T10:39:00.000-08:00

Except my caption would read, "If you look really, really close, you can see that I'm pregnant and not just fat"!

14 weeks & 2 days pregnant

Week 13: Peach

2010-02-05T14:31:00.000-08:00

"Your fetus is forming teeth and vocal cords... savor this, their non-functional phase. Baby is approaching normal proportions, with a head now only one third the size of the body. Intestines are in the process of moving from the umbilical cord to baby's tummy. (Much more convenient.)"

How far along? 13wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I love my maternity pants! I still haven't had to purchase any maternity tops yet.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I miss my sleep! I have been sick with a cold this past week and I wake up every 2 hours because my nose is so congested that I can't breath. I really miss my sleep!

Best moment this week? We received our doppler and it was pretty cool to hear the "woosh, woosh, woosh" of our baby's heartbeat! We also picked out our baby's nursery furniture over the weekend but we won't be purchasing until our big u/s.

Movement? No movement this week.

Food cravings? Food in general just doesn't taste good to me this week...stupid cold!

Gender? Who knows, we will find out on March 11th and I can't wait!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Being able to breath normally and not feeling like crap!

What I'm looking forward to? Finding out the sex and decorating the nursery!

Weekly Wisdom: Being sick while pregnant sucks! Sorry ladies, that is all of the wisdom I can muster up this week.

Milestones: Going baby shopping (well, more browsing than actual shopping)!

Emotions: I get teary eyed watching anything baby related.

13 weeks & 6 days pregnant

They Lie!

2010-02-02T08:33:00.001-08:00

I was filled with promises of 2nd trimester goodness, moms everywhere made it seem like the most wonderful place to be...THEY LIE!

Ok, granted I've only been in the 2nd trimester for 3 days now but this is the most awful that I've ever felt, ever! My all day nausea has returned with a vengeance and where is this energy surge that I've heard of? Today I woke up with a sore throat and cough, oh the joy of being pregnant and not being able to overdose on DayQuil.

Sorry for being so whiny, I feel entitled to at least 1 (or 10?) whiny blog post during each trimester. Don't let those moms fool you, the 2nd trimester is not as grand as they make it seem.

13 weeks & 3 days pregnant

Our news is out!!

2010-01-31T08:03:00.000-08:00

We sent out these Valentine's Day cards/btw we're knocked up cards a couple days ago to our out of town friends and family. People started posting on facebook about the cards so it was time to out ourselves to the world! I was a little nervous to press "share" but it has been fun reading all of the responses. No strange comments to report (yet). I still can't believe that we are officially in the 2nd trimester, we celebrated by going baby shopping/browsing yesterday and we picked out our nursery furniture! We won't be purchasing the furniture until the big 19 week u/s...I can't wait to start decorating!!!

13 weeks & 1 day pregnant

Week 12: Plum

2010-01-29T15:54:00.000-08:00

"As you move into the second trimester, baby shifts into the growth and maturation stage. After weeks in the critical development stage, almost all of baby's systems are fully formed. "

How far along? 12wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I love my maternity jeans...I'm never going back!

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? What sleep?! Seriously, I have only been getting around 4 hours of sleep this week. I'll wake up at 3am STARVING and then I can't go back to sleep so I end up just surfing the web. Is this training for August? I already miss my sleep!

Best moment this week? Seeing our little one flip and do a head stand on Monday!! It was incredible!

Movement? You might think I'm crazy but I swear I felt fluttering on Sunday and then again yesterday. It sort of felt like knocking from the inside - definitely not something I've ever felt before so I don't think it could have been gas. I can't wait to feel a full on kick! Oh and besides that, my sciatic nerve has been killing me, thank goodness for prenatal massages!

Food cravings? Eggs and Peaches! Oh and pickles and just fruit in general!

Gender? I've been thinking girl the past couple weeks...we'll find out in March! BTW I found the cutest little girl bedding today!!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not feeling exhausted 24/7 but I hear that this improves in the 2nd trimester...I'm still waiting for this...still waiting!

What I'm looking forward to? Reaching the 2nd trimester next week and sharing our news with the world over the weekend!

Weekly Wisdom: I officially think my baby is going to be a genius...head stands and flips at 12 weeks?! Come on, those are qualities of a genius lol!

Milestones: Feeling flutters!!

Emotions: I'm still hormonal but I'm using those hormones for good not evil ;-)

12 weeks & 6 days pregnant

12 Week Appointment

2010-01-29T09:51:00.000-08:00

I went to my 12 week appointment on Monday morning and it was the BEST doctor's visit yet! This appointment was with my physician's assistant and she was AWESOME, very knowledgeable and super sweet! They did a surprise ultrasound and because Mr. Baby Fever couldn't make it (he was already taking off early for the stupid NT Scan...grrr), the nurse allowed me to film it. Our little one turned completely around during the ultrasound as if to say, "Mom leave me alone I'm trying to sleep!" Baby then proceeded to stand on his/her head head haha! I totally think that our baby is totally advanced being able to do flips and all lol! You could see the developing spine in the ultrasound and the nurse said that everything is looking good. The baby's heart rate was at 148 , which is in the normal range. My heart completely melted seeing our little one on the screen and I get teary eyed just thinking about it. How is it possible to already be so in love with something so tiny?! It is surreal and absolutely amazing to think that I have this little person inside of me right now. Ok, I'm officially crying (dang hormones)! I felt my first flutter on Sunday and again yesterday - it felt like knocking from the inside and something I've never felt before. I know it's early and you probably think I'm crazy but I really don't think it was gas. I can't wait to feel a full on kick!

Baby @ 12 weeks 2 days

Here is the video from my u/s, you can hear the awesome nurse explaining our little blob (I've already watched it a million times!)...

NT Scan Vent

2010-01-28T11:43:00.001-08:00

Our NT Scan appointment was on Monday and in one word it was horrible. No, we didn't get abnormal results and in fact we didn't get any results at all. The tech was incredibly rude the moment we walked into the ultrasound room. I understand that this is just a job to many tech's and that while I don't expect them to be excited for us I do expect to be treated with respect as one of their customers. The tech instructed me to sit at the edge of the table and then proceeded to stare at me. There are two parts to the NT Scan, a blood test and an ultrasound. Seeing as how I have never done this before, I wasn't sure what they were going to do first. After a few seconds of the tech staring at me like I'm stupid she told me, "You might want to lay down, I need to start scanning". Ok lady, you instructed me to sit not lay so don't talk to me like I'm dumb!

The tech proceeded to haphazardly move the wand all over my belly without communicating what she was doing. After 2 minutes, she appeared frustrated and started jabbing me with the ultrasound wand. I told her that she was hurting me and she stated that she needed to push hard. Again without communicating, she started forcibly shaking my stomach with her wand. I told her that I wasn't comfortable with her doing that and it was making me sick. She responded that the baby is well protected. That very well may be the case but I certainly didn't have confidence in her ability to perform a safe ultrasound. I've lost count of the number of miscarriages that I've heard about on the 1st trimester board so no, the baby is not very well protected. Mr. Baby Fever asked me if I wanted to end the test and the tech said, "The baby isn't cooperating anyway so you can just reschedule". I was fuming on the way out and no I didn't make another appointment.

I feel like she was being impatient and because it was the last appointment of the day she just wanted us out of there. I've heard of many NT Scans lasting 30/40 minutes because they had to wait for the baby to turn - this lady just wanted to be done. I felt completely stressed the entire time and I felt like the baby was stressed so I'm glad we left. It isn't normal for an ultrasound to hurt or to leave bruises (yes, I have a bruise on my abdomen from the tech jabbing at me). We've decided that we don't need or want this test after this experience. It isn't medically necessary and after our 12 week appointment (which I will post about later), we are confident that everything is going well. After talking to several other ladies who have gone through this same test, our experience was definitely not typical!

12 weeks & 5 days pregnant

The Next Chapter

2010-01-24T10:41:00.000-08:00

I've wanted to become a mom since before I can even remember and when I met my husband I knew he would make a terrific father. I remember us talking about children very early on when we first started dating and I remember us starting to save for a baby before we were even married. I remember us coming up with a plan to start trying shortly after our wedding. When we had difficulty trying to conceive I felt like my life was on hold, like I couldn't move on to the next chapter in my life that I so desperately wanted to be in. I would wish, hope, pray for a baby every single day. It just hit me today that I'm finally able to turn the page, I have arrived in the next chapter in my life. I keep saying this but I'm incredibly grateful for this experience and I'm looking forward to becoming a mom.

We have our NT Scan tomorrow and I'm really looking forward to seeing our little one again. I hope that he/she is healthy and that we are able to see a strong heartbeat. If all goes well, we plan on announcing our news to our extended family and friends. Wish us luck!

Aprox. 12 weeks & 1 days pregnant

Week 11: Lime

2010-01-22T07:04:00.000-08:00

"Your fetus currently enjoys a 1:1 ratio between body and head, and has skin so transparent that blood vessels show right through it. But fingers and toes are no longer webbed, and hair follicles, tooth buds, and nail beds are forming -- setting up a significantly more attractive future. "

How far along? 11wks & 6 days!

Maternity clothes? I bought another pair of maternity jeans. My regular jeans are soooo uncomfortable if I wear them all day.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks and I'm applying anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm incredibly exhausted all the time and can't seem to stay up past 9pm. We just bought a new bed so I'm sleeping much better now!

Best moment this week? I finally shared our news with my best friends this week! They were incredibly supportive and excited for us.

Movement? Morning sickness has greatly improved but now I'm experiencing round ligament pain if I move to sudden.

Food cravings? Eggs and Peaches! Mmmm I could go for some eggs right now!

Gender? I had a moment this week where I thought girl but we'll see. We're just excited to find out!

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not feeling exhausted 24/7 but I hear that this improves in the 2nd trimester...I'm still waiting for this!

What I'm looking forward to? Our next ultra sound next week!

Weekly Wisdom: Yoga pants are currently a way of life.

Milestones: Round ligament pain, 2 pairs of maternity jeans.

Emotions: Yes, I'm emotional. Enough said.

Aprox. 11 weeks & 6 days pregnant

Extra Shoestrings?!

2010-01-21T10:55:00.000-08:00

Mr. Baby Fever reassured me that because he read a chapter in his Expectant Father book about how to deliver a baby that we are good to go lol!

Mr. Baby Fever: Do we have extra shoestrings?

Me: I don't think so, why?

Mr. Baby Fever: For the umbilical cord!

Me: What are you talking about?

Mr. Baby Fever: In case I have to deliver the baby!

I love that he is so into this and confident his his baby delivering abilities but I still prefer someone with more experience to deliver this baby!!

Aprox. 11 weeks & 5 days pregnant

I'm addicted to this...

2010-01-21T07:22:00.000-08:00

Just Peachy Breakfast Shake

Thick and creamy, you'll need a spoon to get every last drop.

Tip: If you like your shake less creamy, don't freeze the banana.

Ingredients

1 medium banana, frozen and sliced
1 cup frozen unsweetened peach slices
¾ cup vanilla yogurt
½ cup calcium-fortified cranberry juice (I use OJ)
2 Tbsp wheat germ, if desired

Instructions

Place all ingredients in blender or food processor and process until pureed. Pour into a tall glass and serve.

Makes 1 tall glass.

Nutritional Information

1 serving = 390 calories
Protein: ½ serving
Vitamin C: ½ serving
Calcium: 1-plus serving
Green/yellow fruit: 1 serving
Other fruit: 1 serving
Whole grains: 1 serving, if wheat germ is added

Aprox. 11 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Week 10: Prune

2010-01-12T08:45:00.000-08:00

"With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.) "

How far along? 10 weeks & 3 days!

Maternity clothes? Still living in my stretchy yoga pants and my pair of comfy maternity jeans.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks but I finally bought some anti-stretch mark cream.

Sleep? I'm incredibly exhausted all the time and can't seem to stay up past 9pm.

Best moment this week? My second glucose test results came back normal!

Movement? Well besides my expanding belly, my morning (ALL DAY) sickness has greatly improved.

Food cravings? Eggs and Peaches!

Gender? We both still think boy but just wish for a healthy baby.

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? I miss not feeling exhausted 24/7 but I hear that this improves in the 2nd trimester.

What I'm looking forward to? Reaching the 2nd trimester!

Weekly Wisdom: Try to stop stressing and just enjoy being in the moment.

Milestones: Using anti-stretch mark cream.

Emotions: I feel more like myself this week, although I did burst out in tears yesterday after a dental appointment from hell.

Aprox. 10 weeks & 3 days pregnant

Grateful

2010-01-07T10:06:00.001-08:00

I just feel so incredibly grateful to be pregnant, especially when we didn't think this was going to happen for us and especially when so many couples continue to struggle. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't feel beyond blessed to be growing this little bean. Our 2nd ultrasound was on Monday and it was absolutely amazing seeing our baby's heartbeat for the first time. Our little one was wiggling around and waved at us - I'm so in love already! The heart rate was at 150, which the tech said was in the normal range (whew). Baby measured at 9 weeks and 5 days - not too far off of my charting calculations of 9 weeks and 2 days. I could have stayed there staring at the monitor all day if they let me!

I went in for my 3 hour glucose test on Tuesday and I'm just praying for normal results. I'm really dreading gestational diabetes because I not only want a healthy pregnancy/baby but I also know that there is a high chance that I will get diabetes after pregnancy. I'm really dreading this because most of my family members with diabetes have had complications (blindness, amputations, etc.) due to diabetes. I'm really trying to get my sugar level in check regardless of the results and I'm planning on making an appointment with a nutritionist to come up with a meal plan.

In other news, I received The Belly Book in the mail yesterday from my awesome mom! I'm a little sad that I just started taking pictures to track my progress but my baby bloat wasn't making me feel very photogenic.

Aprox. 9 weeks & 5 days pregnant

Week 9: Olive

2010-01-03T20:07:00.000-08:00

"Your little embryo has now officially graduated to fetus-hood. Adding to the excitement, a Doppler ultrasound device might be able to pick up the beating heart. With basic physical structures in place and increasingly distinct facial features, baby is kind of starting to look like... well... a baby!"

How far along? 9 weeks & 1 days!

Maternity clothes? I'm currently living in my stretchy yoga pants and my pair of comfy maternity jeans.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks but I still need to pick up some cocoa butter.

Sleep? Lately I've been going to bed by 8pm but between the tossing, turning and frequent trips to the restroom I never feel rested.

Best moment this week? Our first ultra sound last week was incredible! It was the most amazing thing I've ever seen and I'm looking forward to another ultra sound tomorrow.

Movement? The cramps have slightly improved but the morning (ALL DAY) sickness is still there in full force.

Food cravings? Eggs, which is really strange because I normally hate eggs! I'm still craving eggs and today I was craving a PB&J sandwich (this child definitely has my husband's eating habits!).

Gender? We're both thinking boy this week. We really don't care what the gender is, we just want a healthy baby.

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Not feeling nauseous and exhausted 24/7 but it is all worth it!

What I'm looking forward to? Our 2nd ultrasound tomorrow!

Weekly Wisdom: Don't mess with a pregnant woman who is hungry (just ask Mr. Baby Fever).

Milestones: Our first ultra sound!

Emotions: My hormones are still raging but I must say that Mr. Baby Fever has been incredibly supportive, even when I don't deserve it lol!

Aprox. 9 weeks & 1 days pregnant

First Appointment

2009-12-30T08:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was our first appointment and so far so good. We saw our little bean for the first time and it was an incredible moment! Our baby was flickering its little arms (at least we think they were arms) and I was shocked at how much it looked like a baby this early on. It was truly amazing and this finally feels real to me. I feel like I can get excited now!

My awesome OB went with my ovulation date so my estimated due date is still 8/7/10. She sent me to get a glucose test done due to my family history of diabetes, let's hope this comes back normal at this point! My OB also gave us orders for another ultra sound because her machine is low quality compared to the labs, so we are looking forward to seeing our baby again soon!

Mr. Baby Fever has been reading his Expecting Father book and I think it is so sweet when he looks up from the book with a look of concern asking me if I have been staying away from soft cheeses or if I'm sleeping on my left side. It melts my heart when he says "good morning" and "goodnight" to our baby!

Aprox. 8 weeks & 4 days pregnant

Sharing Our News

2009-12-28T14:37:00.000-08:00

Mr. Baby Fever and I spent the holidays with my family in NM and finally shared our good news with them. I woke up at 3am on Christmas morning to cramping and light spotting. I decided to call my doctor's after hours line and the doc told me that it sounded normal as long as the cramping and bleeding didn't continue to get worse. I of course stayed up all night checking for more blood but thankfully the spotting stopped after I called the doctor. We debated whether or not to tell my family on Christmas as planned but after getting a few more hours of sleep, we felt better about sharing our news with them.

After opening presents, we gave my parents handmade cards with this poem inside:

This Christmas we have a special present to share,

This is a gift that requires extra love and care.

It's not bright and shiny, or wrapped in a bow,

We just know that you'll treasure and love it so.

You may be wondering where this gift might be,

Since as you can see this card is empty.

Well, you can't play with this present today,

Because it hasn't arrived yet I'm sorry to say.

This gift is special and needs time to grow,

The wait is well worth it we want you to know!

In August your surprise will be ready for you,

Because that is when baby C is due!

They started crying and then we started crying! My mom has been there for me through all of our struggles with conceiving and this was a great moment to share with her. After lots of hugs and tears, we gave my parents a cute grandparents frame and an ornament. We wanted to tell Mr. Baby Fever's mom at the same time we told my parents but because she decided that she didn't want to travel with us, he had to tell her right before he left. I was disappointed that I didn't get to see her reaction but Mr. Baby Fever said that she was happy. I'm glad that she had time to digest the news because she tends to be a glass half empty type of person but she couldn't have been happier for us when we returned home.

My parents always host a Christmas party at their home and because we weren't sure when we would be visiting again, we wanted to also share the news with my close knit extended family. We always play games at our family gatherings so we planned to tell everyone during a game of charades. The game played out as usual - my silly family members making fools of themselves lol. When it was Mr. Baby Fever's turn, he acted out as if he were pregnant and when someone shouted, "PREGNANT!" he pointed to me and my uncle shouted, "Mrs. Baby Fever is pregnant?". The room was silent until I said, "and I'm due in August!" and then everyone started cheering and crying and more cheering and more crying! Mr. Baby Fever and I are both only children, I'm the only grandchild on my dad's side and the oldest grandchild on my mom's side so everyone has been waiting for this. It was a great way for us to share our news!

We have our first appointment tomorrow (FINALLY) and I'm just praying that our baby is developing as he/she should be. Wish us luck!

Aprox. 8 weeks & 2 days pregnant

Week 8: Raspberry

2009-12-28T06:57:00.000-08:00

"Your baby is growing like mad, putting on about a millimeter every day and continuing to straighten out in the trunk. Though you can't feel it yet, baby is moving those little arms, legs and (now only slightly) webbed fingers and toes like crazy."

How far along? 8 weeks & 2 days!

Maternity clothes? I'm ashamed to admit this but I purchased and wore my first pair of maternity jeans this week...yes, at 8 weeks lol. It is painful to hang out in my old jeans all day and even though some people swear by it, the bella band just doesn't seem like it would hold up my pants as I'm up and down working with kids all day.

Stretch marks? Nope, although I want to start cocoa butter ASAP!

Sleep? My back has been hurting lately so I've been tossing and turning at night.

Best moment this week? Telling our family that we are pregnant!!

Movement? The cramps have slightly improved but the morning (ALL DAY) sickness is still there in full force.

Food cravings? Eggs, which is really strange because I normally hate eggs!

Gender? I continue to think boy and Mr. Baby Fever keeps changing his mind. We really don't care what the gender is, we just want a healthy baby.

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Not feeling nauseous 24/7, but I know that this is a good sign so I'm not complaining!

What I'm looking forward to? Our first appointment tomorrow!

Weekly Wisdom: Maternity pants are fabulous...I might never go back to regular pants!

Milestones: Telling our family!

Emotions: I have been crying at the silliest stuff lately!

Aprox. 8 weeks & 2 days pregnant

Week 6: Sweet Pea

2009-12-12T08:31:00.000-08:00

"Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Those little hands and feet- still webbed like paddles- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!), and blood is starting to circulate."

How far along? 6 weeks today!

Maternity clothes? I found the perfect pre-maternity pants yesterday, possibly the most comfy pants in the world. They are the amazing pull on pants by NY & Co. How did I not know about these before?!

Stretch marks? Nope.

Sleep? The constant peeing doesn't seem to be helping my sleep.

Best moment this week? Continuing to feel like something is going on.

Movement? Cramps and morning sickness (well, all day sickness actually).

Food cravings? For awhile there I was craving Avocado...mmm that sounds good right about now.

Gender? This week we both think boy. We really don't care what the gender is, we just want a healthy baby.

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Not feeling bloated 24/7 (this still).

What I'm looking forward to? Our first appointment on the 29th!

Weekly Wisdom: Go buy NY & Co.'s pull on pants...now!

Milestones: Bring on the morning sickness.

Emotions: My hormones are still raging. Mr. Baby Fever is hanging in there lol.

Aprox. 6 weeks pregnant

101 in 1001: Progress

2009-12-11T07:53:00.000-08:00

My 101 in 1001 list can be found HERE.

11. Get pregnant.

I can't believe I can cross this one off my list!

16. Participate in a craft fair.

I participated in Indie Chic over the weekend. I was freezing and exhausted by the end of the day but it was worth it!

18. Buy a website domain name.

Done. I'm working on a new and improved website for all of my crafty ventures - it should be up and running in 2010!

33. Read 20 books. (2/20)

I just finished Precious by Sapphire. It was vulgar but with a purpose - I personally liked it and I can't wait to see the movie.

39. Try 10 new restaurants. (1/10)

We tried Buffalo Wild Wings a few weeks ago. Great for a wings place and it was nice to try something new!

45. Watch a movie starting with each letter of the alphabet. (3/26)

We rented Fargo from the library over the weekend and loved it!

47. Get patio furniture for our back yard.

My very awesome dad recently refurbished some patio furniture for us - I love it! All we need now is an umbrella.

54. Adopt a child for Christmas.

We "adopted" a 14 year old boy for the holidays through The Adoption Coalition of Texas - an awesome organization that is dedicating to finding children families. The majority of these children are older and have special needs.

69. Find 10 things to love about living in Arizona. (1/10)

I'm loving Arizona's "winter" weather!! I think I've only had to wear a coat once or twice since I've moved here.

73. Attend a midnight movie premier.

Don't judge, I went to the New Moon premier...and then went again not even 24 hours later lol!

84. Buy 5 things on Etsy. (1/5)
I bought the majority of my Christmas gifts from Red Leaf (one of my fave shops).

97. Fill and donate a shoebox for Operation Christmas Child.

Done and done. I filled a shoebox geared towards a little girl and it was fun to fill it will all things pink.

5 Weeks

2009-12-09T09:27:00.000-08:00

I'm crampy and bloated but I feel great so far! It feels good to feel that something is going on in my body - like this just isn't all in my head lol. This still feels surreal and I will feel so much better once we hear the heart beat on 12/29. Here is a little pregnancy questionnaire that I hope to do each week...

How far along? 5 weeks & 4 days

Maternity clothes? While TTC I lost a jean size and now my new "skinny" jeans are feeling a bit snug but I refuse to go back to my old size at week 5! I had an awesome coupon for Gap Maternity and I ended up placing an order for a pair of jeans and a couple shirts. I was a little nervous ordering these but I couldn't pass up the great sale so let's hope I will still need them in a few weeks.

Stretch marks? No and let's hope not for a really long time!

Sleep? I have been experiencing never ending cramps (similar to AF cramps) that wake me up throughout the night. As long as there is no blood, I will take these cramps!

Best moment this week? I love feeling like something is going on!

Movement? Just the cramps. Oh and my boobs are HUGE lol!

Food cravings? Pickles and ice cream...so cliche lol!

Gender? I think boy and DH thinks girl.

Labor signs? Nope.

What I miss? Not feeling bloated 24/7 lol.

What I'm looking forward to? I'm looking forward to sharing the news with our parents on Christmas morning!

Weekly Wisdom: I'm trying not to stress too much about the "what if's" and trying to enjoy each day of this pregnancy (bloat, cramps and all!).

Milestones: I bought my first batch of maternity clothes!

Emotions: My hormones are out of control lol! I'm up and down - feel free to feel bad for Mr. Baby Fever!

Aprox. 5 weeks and 4 days pregnant

BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-03T13:56:00.000-08:00

After 2 years of TTC, I'm (cautiously) ecstatic to announce that I'm pregnant!!! Someone pinch me! My blood tests confirmed yesterday that this is real - you know, just in case all 10 HPT's weren't working correctly.

I was impatiently waiting for CD1 to get here so I could schedule the battery of required fertility tests in order to get started with treatment. I thought I was having another 60+ day cycle so when we went out of town for Thanksgiving, I didn't think twice about testing and in fact I left my basal thermometer at home because I just needed a break. During our trip we had a conversation about how we just felt defeated by this process and how we had lost any hope in conceiving naturally.

Back home my alarm went off and I decided, what the heck, I'm going to pee on an internet cheapie. To my surprise and disbelief, there were 2 distinct lines. I was in complete denial and told myself that I would go back to bed and test again the next day. I couldn't get back to sleep and I ended up on the internet searching the gallery of HPT tests on fertility friend - trying to find something that told me that I was crazy and seeing lines that were not there! After seeing 30 or so BFP's that looked just like mine, I hopped out of bed and peed on a digital. The whole time I was thinking - don't get your hopes up, don't get your hopes up.

"Pregnant" appeared, clear as day, and I ran into the bedroom and stuck the test in front of Mr. Baby Fever's face. He was still groggy from just waking up but he got the point when he saw me bawling. It was a moment that I had pictured in my head for literally years and it felt surreal to have it playing out in real life. I actually had a whole elaborate plan (involving Prego pasta sauce lol) for how I was going to tell Mr. Baby Fever but this was so much better! We couldn't be happier and, wow, this baby has perfect timing! We're praying/hoping/wishing for a sticky baby.

Moral to the story - don't lose hope, even when things seem hopeless!

Aprox. 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant

Horrible.

2009-11-12T20:09:00.000-08:00

Horrible.

That would pretty much sum up my first appointment with the RE. I should preface this by saying that my RE choices were extremely limited - 5 physicians are covered by my insurance and only 1 is female. I of course went with the female because I just don't feel comfortable with a strange man going anywhere near my vagina, not that I'm comfortable with a woman going near my vagina, but you get the point.

Anyway, we showed up to our appointment on time and the RE was running an hour late. We both took off work early for this appointment but things come up so we were understanding and patiently waited. From the moment the RE greeted us (or didn't greet us- she just called us back without so much as a hello) she was just completely cold and uncaring. Right out of the gate she asks me when the first day of my last period was (this question is getting really old) and what my cycles were like. I told her that my cycles varied - not much but my period didn't land on the same day each month. She straight out told me that this wasn't normal and could mean that I have PCOS without reading any of my tests or doing any additional tests...WTF?! I've been down this road before! I challenged her and told her that I had read that it was normal for a woman's cycle to vary within reason and that I had my charts with me if she wanted to look at them. She got all snippy with me and told me that she had been doing this for a long time and barely glanced at my charts. She did manage to pick out the 1 chart that wasn't complete (I was taking a charting break for a couple weeks but it still showed the temp shift) and rudely asked, "What happened here, did you get tired of charting?". I didn't respond to that and should have just walked out of there. She then asked me if I was using ovulation sticks and I told her that I had a monitor and that besides the first months it gave me a "peak" reading for the past 4 or 5 months. Without knowing anything about me she said, "Those could have been a false positives" and I told her that my charts say otherwise and she completely ignored me and proceeded to describe how my ovaries could be acting older than they should be...WTF?! She continued to go through the questionnaire questions that I filled out and asked if I had unusual hair growth. I told her that I hadn't experienced that. She apparently didn't believe my answer on her questionnaire or my answer over the phone or the answer I just gave her because she proceeded to ask the question in a different way. She asked if I waxed or shaved and I told her that like most women I waxed my eyebrows, sometimes my lip and shaved my legs but that it wasn't abnormal. She apparently still wasn't believing me because she proceeded to ask how often I waxed/shaved and I told her once a month and I didn't feel like it was abnormal because (1) it wasn't too frequent and (2) many Hispanic females with darker hair have to wax/shave on a monthly basis. She then showed her cultural insensitivity and asked, "So this is a common problem for your family members?". Umm what problem?! WTF?! She still didn't drop it after that and continued to ask if I had to shave/wax my chest?! NO I DON'T SHAVE MY CHEST LADY!!! This was all in front of Mr. BabyFever and I don't know about you but I don't typically share my waxing routine with my husband. At that point I was just giving her one word responses and just wanted to get the hell out of there. She said that she wanted to do a physical exam and I very shortly told her, "not today" and I think she got the hint that I wasn't happy. She wanted to send us to do all of these tests and I told her that I would think about it and quickly left her office.

Call me sensitive and overemotional but I don't think that is the case here. I keep replaying the appointment in my head and she is truly just a crappy doctor. I'm so frustrated and disappointed and angry and a million other emotions right now. Doesn't she know how tiresome and emotional TTC can be? I don't expect her to welcome us into her office with a hug but she could have shown an ounce of compassion or, at the very least, respect. It took a lot for us to make that appointment in the first place and to finally admit that we might not be able to do this naturally.

I'm not sure what to do. My only other option is to see a male RE, something I'm not looking forward to. Our insurance will be changing in 2010 and it's important that we get all of our testing out of the way before then, which means I will need to go in for tests with this lady. I need a break from all of this. I'm drained.

A Million Questions

2009-11-09T22:52:00.000-08:00

We had a phone consultation with the nurse from the fertility office last week and I was a little (ok, a lot) annoyed at their lack of sensitivity. I understand the importance of being thorough and screening patients but they seriously could have been more sensitive. First, they made us fill out a 20 page (I'm not joking) document full of personal and somewhat embarassing questions (modesty is apparently thrown out the window when you are TTC). I somewhat expected the questionnaire but what I didn't expect was for the nurse to grill me about the questionnaire during the phone consult.

Maybe I'm overreacting (which I'm known to do) but why have us fill out this stupid form if they are just going to ask us the same questions over the phone?! Not only did she re-ask the questions but she kept saying "are you sure?" after I would answer. Seriously?! YES I'M SURE! At one point she asked if I was charting/using an ovulation monitor (this was also on the form that she refused to read) and when I told her that I was doing both she actually asked, "well how's that going for you?". How in the heck does someone answer that question? Did she want me to say, "Everything is going swell, I love working up early to temp". Instead I told her, "well not that good - that is why I'm talking to you"! She didn't respond to my sarcasm and continued with her stupid questions. I know she is just doing her job (her very annoying question asking job) but is all of this really necessary?!

This whole process has me extremely frustrated and I'm just feeling done with all of it...but unfortunately it has just begun for us so I will continue to answer these stupid questions if they get us one step closer to having a baby. We have an appointment with our fertility specialist tomorrow to discuss our options and any more tests I might have to do (the HSG test was mentioned...sounds like fun). I'm hopeful...and frustrated...but mainly hopeful.

CD 21

101 in 1001: More Progress

2009-11-09T22:13:00.000-08:00

My 101 in 1001 list can be found HERE.

7. Organize garage so we can park our cars in there.

Both cars can FINALLY fit in our garage!! This was a HUGE task and I'm still exhausted from unpacking all of those boxes.

8. Have a yard sale.

We had a yard sale on Saturday and got rid of tons of stuff we no longer need...this would be why we can now park our cars in our garage!

9. Donate remaining yard sale items to Goodwill.

We loaded up our car with the remaining yard sale items and went straight to Goodwill. It feels good to purge all of that stuff and start fresh.

23. Make something in our slow cooker.

I'm not sure why but I had a serious fear of my crockpot. We received it for our wedding 2+ years ago and I had never even taken the thing out of its box...until last week! I started with a simple beans and rice recipe and I'm now a believer! I'm already planning my next crock pot meal.

29. Get to know a new neighbor.

Mr. Baby Fever and I went to our neighbor's Halloween party and met a ton of new neighbors that we hadn't met before.

45. Watch a movie starting with each letter of the alphabet. (2/26)

We saw This Is It on Sunday and loved it!

80. Use reusable grocery bags at least 15 times. (1/15)

I finally remembered to bring along my reusable grocery bags on my last trip to the grocery store. I really want to make this a permanent habit.

101 in 1001: Progress

2009-10-29T16:52:00.000-07:00

My 101 in 1001 list can be found HERE.

1. Continue working out 4-5 days/week.

I'm happy to report that after 3 months of working out 4-5 days/week I have FINALLY dropped a jean size! My digestive system is totally messed up from my dieting habits in college so it has been extremely hard to lose any weight but I'm finally seeing progress (and doing it the healthy way this time).

10. See a fertility specialist.

As of October 27th, I can officially cross this goal off of my list. I'm still planning on writing a post about my appointment but I'll tell you that it went better than expected and we're excited to move forward.

12. Go for a jog.

I have been jogging 3 times in the past week!! I was once addicted to running and it felt good to get out there again. Although I'm crossing this off my list, it is still a goal I want to continue.

33. Read 20 books. (1/20)

I just finished Handle With Care and started Ninteen Minutes - both by Jodi Picoult.

45. Watch a movie starting with each letter of the alphabet. (1/26)

We rented Edward Scissorhands from the library over the weekend...such a good movie!

52. Backup digital pics to external hard drive.

Another task complete!

74. Get a library card. & 75. Check out a book from the library.

Mr. Baby Fever and I both signed up for a library card over the weekend. Mr. Baby Fever kept asking if I was sure it was free lol! I'm definitely going to make this goal a monthly habit. Not only is it free to check out books from the library but it is so much better for the environment.

78. Watch 5 of DH’s favorite movies that I haven’t already seen. (1/5)

I watched Dawn of the Dead with Mr. Baby Fever over the weekend...I deserve an award or a cookie or a gold star for this task lol! It was nice to make Mr. Baby Fever happy and we were both able to laugh at the awesome (insert eye roll) acting skills in this movie.

87. Make breakfast for dinner.

We had pumpkin pancakes for dinner a couple days ago and they were yummy!

Tomorrow

2009-10-26T20:49:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but I have been dreading our appointment with the fertility specialist tomorrow. Maybe because if we go that means we are officially admitting that we are infertal? Maybe because if we go that means we failed at something that most people can easily accomplish? I should be excited to learn about our options right? I should be excited to finally get the show on the road right?

I know, I know...this doesn't mean we've failed, this is just another challenge...blah, blah, blah! I'm trying to be optimistic but I'm torn about this appointment. I've just been feeling so emotional about anything baby related lately and I'm dreading tomorrow.

CD7

101 in 1001: Progress

2009-10-21T15:53:00.000-07:00

My 101 in 1001 list can be found HERE.

8. Have a yard sale.

We have signed up for the community yard sale in November...now we just have to go through all of those boxes.

33. Read 20 books. (0/20)

I'm in the process of reading Handle With Care by Jodi Picoult and I'm loving it so far!

41. Get at least 15 articles published in magazines – online or print. (1/15)

One of my craft articles was published on Monday!!

66. Mail a “get well soon” package to someone.

I can cross something off my list! I mailed a "get well soon" package full of snacks, chicken noodle soup and a card making kit to my Aunt yesterday. She was diagnosed with the dreaded H1N1 virus and has been quarantined to her bedroom. Needless to say she is going stir crazy so I thought it would be nice for her to receive a package.

100. Inspire someone else to do 101 in 1001.

Another task I can cross off of my list!! I have inspired several friends to participate in this challenge and it has been fun sharing in their excitement!

101 in 1001

2009-10-18T17:22:00.001-07:00

After seeing the 101 in 1001 challenge on several blogs, I was inspired to jump right in. I'll cross off the tasks as they are completed and blog about them along the way. Wish me luck!

The Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria: Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days? Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organising and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Start Date: October 19, 2009

End Date: July 15, 2012

My to-do list in no particular order…

1. Continue working out 3-4 days/week.

2. ~~Track weight loss progress with monthly pictures.~~

3. Get back to pre-maternity size.

4. When back to pre-maternity size, buy Seven jeans as a reward.

5. Visit Colorado.

6. Go bowling.

7. ~~Organize garage so we can park our cars in there.~~

8. ~~Have a yard sale.~~

9. ~~Donate remaining yard sale items to Goodwill.~~

10. ~~See a fertility specialist.~~

11. ~~Get pregnant.~~

12. ~~Go for a jog.~~

13. ~~Look into replacing blinds with shutters.~~

14. Decorate the blank living room wall.

15. Find 2 chairs for the living room.

16. ~~Participate in a craft fair.~~

17. Write a book proposal.

18. ~~Buy a website domain name.~~

19. Launch my website.

20. Update my shop with new pictures.

21. Take a dance class with DH.

22. Try 8 new recipes. (1/8)

23. ~~Make something in our slow cooker.~~

24. Attend 4 musicals or plays. (2/4)

25. Take a day trip to Flagstaff.

26. Attend at least 1 concert.

27. Send 10 cards to friends just because. (3/10)

28. Send 10 cards to family members just because. (2/10)

29. ~~Get to know a new neighbor.~~

30. ~~Find a rug for our dining room.~~

31. Make something in our wok.

32. Go on a vacation.

33. Read 20 books. (4/20)

34. Go on a picnic.

35. Visit the zoo.

36. Visit a museum or art gallery.

37. Do something nice for DH/10 times. (1/10)

38. Play mini golf.

39. Try 10 new restaurants. (3/10)

40. Do something that I’m proud of.

41. Get at least 15 articles published in magazines – online or print. (3/15)

42. Get a facial.

43. Organize office closet.

44. ~~Take bile salts with every meal for 1 month.~~

45. Watch a movie starting with each letter of the alphabet. (6/26)

A- Avatar

E- Edward Scissorhands

F- Fargo

I- It's Complicated

T- This Is It

U- Up In The Air

46. "Unplug" from the TV, computer and cell phone for 1 day.

47. ~~Get patio furniture for our back yard.~~

48. Have dinner outside.

49. ~~Visit Sedona.~~

50. Organize craft studio book shelf.

51. Clear out computer clutter/delete old files.

52. ~~Backup digital pics to external hard drive.~~

53. Do something I’ve never done before.

54. ~~Adopt a child for Christmas.~~

55. Take 20 pictures of things that make me happy. (0/20)

56. Start and finish a yoga class.

57. Submit a short story or article to Highlights magazine.

58. Paint on canvas.

59. Take a creative class of some sort.

60. Send a secret to PostSecret.

61. Get a bike and go on a bike ride.

62. Try a new class at the gym.

63. Go to a piano bar.

64. Make a wedding album.

65. Take a bubble bath.

66. ~~Mail a "get well soon" package to someone.~~

67. Donate hair to Locks of Love.

68. Complete “Understanding Exposure” lessons.

69. Find 10 things to love about living in Arizona. (2/10)

70. ~~Attend a Phoenix Coyote game.~~

71. Attend an Arizona Diamondbacks game.

72. See a movie at a drive-in.

73. ~~Attend a midnight movie premier.~~

74. ~~Get a library card.~~

75. ~~Check out a book from the library.~~

76. Participate in Operation Beautiful 5 times. (0/5)

77. ~~Go hiking.~~

78. Watch 5 of DH’s favorite movies that I haven’t already seen. (1/5)

79. Paint pottery.

80. Use reusable grocery bags at least 15 times. (1/15)

81. Do something nice for my mom.

82. Do something nice for my dad.

83. Do something nice for my grandparents.

84. Buy 5 things on Etsy. (2/5)

85. Learn a new craft.

86. Make a new vision board.

87. ~~Make breakfast for dinner.~~

88. Visit somewhere that requires a passport.

89. Do something to contribute to the adoption community.

90. Do something to help animals.

91. Visit the Grand Canyon.

92. Teach a class.

93. Go to a wine festival.

94. Compliment a stranger.

95. Get together with an old friend that I haven’t seen in over a year.

96. Donate blood.

97. ~~Fill and donate a shoebox for Operation Christmas Child.~~

98. Print and frame a photo that I took.

99. Discover something new to do in Arizona and do it.

100. ~~Inspire someone else to do 101 in 1001.~~

101. Donate $5 to the Heart Gallery for every task not complete.

Fertility Specialist

2009-09-17T10:30:00.001-07:00

October 27th

That is our appointment date with the fertility specialist. I never thought that I would be making an appointment with a fertility specialist but that is where we are at. I'm not sure I'm ready to be here. According to Mr. Baby Fever's doctor "it is going to be extremely hard for you to conceive naturally". Those words are hard to digest. I have a million questions and a million more concerns. I guess my questions and concerns will have to wait...until October 27th.

CD 4

I Hate Rollercoasters

2009-09-03T16:26:00.000-07:00

If you see my rollercoaster operator, please tell him I’m ready to get off of this horrid ride. I’ve always hated the term “emotional rollercoaster ride” but (for lack of a better description) that is exactly how this disconcerting thing called trying to conceive feels. The next step is for Mr. Baby Fever and I to see a fertility specialist. One minute I’m positive and optimistic but the next minute (most minutes) I feel sad, angry, frustrated, tired (I’ll stop there to spare you from my emotional breakdown). I also feel guilty for even complaining because I know a lot of other couples who have been through so much more than we have.

I’m off to wallow in my misery with some wine and sushi, anyone wanna join me?

CD 23

Claustrophobia

2009-08-26T21:06:00.000-07:00

Claustrophobia (from Latin claustrum "a shut in place") is the fear of having no escape, and being closed in. It is typically classified as an anxiety disorder and often results in panic attack. One study indicates that anywhere from 2-5% of the world population is affected by severe claustrophobia, but only a small percentage of these people receive some kind of treatment for the disorder.

If I wasn’t claustrophobic before, I am now. My mom warned me to shut my eyes before they slid me through the MRI tube and to not open them until they finished. She should have known that by her telling me this, I would obstinately open my eyes midway through the MRI process. Big. Mistake. I quickly shut my eyes just as fast as I had opened them. I had a death grip on the panic button and contemplating squeezing it when I heard the doctor tell me to stop moving. I noticed that my breathing was out of control and tried thinking of bunnies and kitties…anything but confined spaces. What seemed like an eternity later, they pulled me out and asked how it was…umm horrible, dreadful, and terrifying! Ok maybe a bit dramatic but I think I now need to receive treatment for claustrophobia in addition to infertility!

CD 15

Sometimes

2009-08-20T14:38:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think that this whole baby thing will never happen for us.

Sometimes I try to convince myself that it will eventually happen.

Sometimes I try to convince myself that it will be ok if it doesn't.

Sometimes I think that it won't be ok.

Sometimes my thoughts aren't rational.

Mr. Baby Fever completed his second sperm analysis today. The first one didn't produce great results and his doc wanted a second test done. I'll be saying an extra little prayer for Mr. Baby Fever's sperm today.

Hopeful

2009-08-13T20:04:00.000-07:00

Mr. Baby Fever told me that he really thought that this was our lucky cycle. As much as I mentally prepared myself for disappointment, my hopes were still sky high. I had a good cry yesterday after AF crashed my party but today is a new day and I'm still hopeful.

I'm extremely grateful that my cycle was only 35 days long instead of 65. I'm grateful that my chart indicated that I ovulated. I'm also pumped about staying motivated to workout-I really feel like this is helping to get my cycles back on track.

DH asked me if I wanted to try acupuncture for fertility. I get physically ill in the presence of needles (even tiny ones) so I'm not sure if I'm up for this yet. Has anyone tried this?

CD 2

Grrrr...

2009-08-12T06:34:00.001-07:00

Back to CD 1

2nd Anniversary

2009-08-11T17:10:00.000-07:00

Mr. Baby Fever and I have been married for 2 years today. I can't help but think back to all of our talks about how we would be pregnant by now and while that makes me feel a little sad, more than that I'm incredibly grateful to have such an amazing partner in life. A partner that not only puts up with but also shares in my baby fever. A partner that gets genuinely excited when I tell him my temps are still high. A partner that encourages, supports and loves me unconditionally. A partner that, when the time comes, will make a wonderful father.

When the time comes, I know we will make wonderful parents but for now we will celebrate us.

CD 34

Day 1

2009-08-10T15:47:00.000-07:00

Today was day 1 with my new trainer and she kicked my butt! I'm seriously sore but it feels good. I've been going to the gym consistently for the past couple months but have only lost like 6 pounds, which is a good start but I want to keep going. I need someone to micro-manage my workouts and to push me. I'll be working out with my trainer once a week for the next 10 weeks and she will assign me homework or "gymwork" to do in between workouts. The trainer is super sweet and very motivating so I'm looking forward to these next 10 weeks. I know this is going to help get my cycle/fertility back on track and at the very least I will be much healthier/happier!

CD 33

The Baby Question

2009-08-08T23:54:00.001-07:00

A "friend" from college (who I'm no longer close to) just sent me a random message on facebook asking me if Mr. Baby Fever and I were thinking about having babies anytime soon.

How I would like to respond: "Why? Are you planning on throwing us a baby shower or are you just being incredibly rude and nosey? Seeing as how we aren’t close friends anymore I would guess that it is the latter. Not that this is any of your business but DH and I have been thinking about and planning for babies for the past 5 years. We have been trying unsuccessfully for over a year now, again not that this is any of your business, and if I wanted you to know that I was trying to have a baby you would already know and you wouldn't have to ask me that question."

How I probably will respond: “Hey! How have you been? Mr. Baby Fever and I have thought about babies. Are you and Mr. Rude/Nosey planning on having babies anytime soon?”

(Avoidance and distraction, a great little trick I picked up being a counselor. Plus people really only ask questions so they can talk about themselves.)

Ugh. CD 31

Baby Shower Hell

2009-08-06T14:56:00.000-07:00

I suffered through my 15 year old (and youngest) cousin's baby shower (yes, I said 15) this past weekend. I know this might sound harsh but I just can't bring myself to be happy for someone who is pregnant and incredibly irresponsible. I've worked in the child welfare/foster care field for the past 7 years and I really lack empathy for crappy parents. I'm not saying that my cousin is going to be a crappy parent but she just doesn't have a clue. Her idea of a "good parent" doesn't go beyond dressing up her baby in cute clothes (her registry full of newborn clothing instead of diapers, bottles, etc. proved that).

My cousin had invited her friends to the party and I'm pretty sure my mouth dropped open in shock when I saw them because they were all pregnant. I'm not exaggerating, she had maybe 10 friends there...6 were pregnant and 1 just had a baby. All of these girls were 16 years old or younger. Wow since when did it become trendy to tote around a crying, pooping, spitting up baby when you are just a baby yourself?! The girl with the baby looked absolutely miserable and never once held her baby (in the 4 hours I was there) but allowed the baby to be passed around from friend to friend. I don't think her friends noticed her misery...they were too busy talking about how cute the baby was.

The party got better when my cousin opened up her gifts and every 2 seconds asked, "what do you do with that?" or "what is that called?". She held up a pacifier and was like, "what is this called again? Oh yeah a pacifier"...shoot me! Let's hope she figures out what pacifiers are for before she delivers!

On a happier note, I must admit that I had fun shopping for the shower. I bought her a medical kit and for something fun I made her a cupcake onsie and got her this burp cloth and a bib to match from babymomo on etsy...

CD 28

Bittersweet Birthday

2009-07-31T11:58:00.001-07:00

I had always "planned" to be pregnant by the time I was 27...it sounds silly typing that out because I'm fully aware that life doesn't always follow your plan but I was still hopeful. With my 27th quickly approaching I decided that instead of sulking I would embrace my non-baby life and go to Vegas. We had lots of sushi, lots of wine and stayed out till the wee hours. I only broke down in tears once on my birthday, ok maybe twice, but it was so much better than it would have been had we stayed home. I know Mr. Baby Fever feels awful and the stress of TTC has really caught up to us.

We hadn't planned a vacation because "what if" I was pregnant. I didn't want to go back to school because "what if" I got pregnant. I'm going to stop putting my life on hold waiting for a baby. Yes, I want a baby more than anything but life goes on and I'm sick of missing out on things because of the "what if's". I'm going to continue living life and if when we do get pregnant I will change my plans. So with that said, we adopted a new kitten yesterday, something we weren't going to do because "what if" I got pregnant. When I make up my mind on something I go all out lol! I'm really hoping that this new approach helps me chill out and recognize/be grateful for things that I do have.

In other TTC news, Mr. Baby Fever saw his urologist yesterday and will be doing a SA soon. I got my first peak day on my fertility monitor yesterday...woohoo! I'm hoping that my temps will confirm that I'm ovulating.

CD 22

Pre-Seed

2009-07-19T14:48:00.000-07:00

I just placed an order for pre-seed from early-pregnancy-tests.com after reading raving reviews. We should receive it just in time to use it this cycle (let's hope I ovulate). At this point I will try just about anything...bring on the green tea and pineapple cores.

CD 10

The Results Are In

2009-07-17T10:44:00.001-07:00

I just got back from my doctor's apointment and for the most part my results were better than I expected.

We'll start with the good news, I've lost 5 pounds since my last doctor's apointment 5 weeks ago. Although I would have liked to have lost more, I will take what I can get. My liver is normal (it wasn't 6 weeks ago) and I no longer have h.pylori (something we were afraid was back).

Now for the really good news, my tests do not show that I have PCOS (although my doctor said she is keeping this on her radar because of other present symptoms).

As for the not so good news, cervical nabothian cysts are present but they shouldn't impact fertility (great news). I also have a midly heterogeneous myometrium (which can impact fertility) and require an MRI of the pelvis to give us more info.

Dr. C recommended that I continue charting both my temperature and cervical mucus. This is the first doctor that has been able to have a conversation with me about cervical mucus and what to look for! Unfortanately, Dr. C is only my primary (but an internal specialist) and had to refer me back to my obgyn for more specialized care. I think I'm going to chart the next couple cycles before I see an obgyn again. Dr. C also recommended that DH get a SA done, something we were already planning on doing. She of course recommended losing weight so that is the plan. I'm determined to make my uterus the best uterus ever lol.

CD 8

Mmmm Barium

2009-07-14T16:02:00.000-07:00

X-ray Tech: Is there any chance you could be pregnant?

Me: Nope

Why in the world do they have you fill out a form with that exact question on it if they have no intention of ever reading it? After answering that question 20 times in the past couple weeks, it feels like a slap in the face. I realize that the nurses and techs are just doing their job but I can't help but feel a little frustrated. I had an Upper GI done today...the last of my scheduled tests before I see my internal specialist on Friday for all of the results. I've had digestive issues since my gallbladder was removed in 2004...one of the reasons (in addition to infertility) for all of these tests. Aside from the barium tasting like chalk (not that I've ever tasted chalk), the process wasn't too horrible and I just had to lay there as the doc took pics of my insides. There were 2 interns in the room in addition to the doctor and his assistant so I felt a bit on display but I'm starting to get used to this. It was interesting being able to see the barium travel from my esophagus to my stomach...maybe I missed my calling as an x-ray tech. I wouldn't re-ask my patients things that they already took the time to write down. Wish me luck for my Friday appointment!

CD 5

Welcome AF!

2009-07-10T21:49:00.000-07:00

I have never been happier to see AF!! I have horrible cramps but I'll take them! Looks like I won't need to fill my Provera prescription after all. I'm officially back to charting starting tomorrow. I couldn't find my old basal thermometer so DH brought home a brand new pink one...he claims that it will only make girls lol. Bring on another cycle!

CD 1